being suicidal doesn't mean that I'm going to kill myself. Being suicidal is having this inexplainable ache while you're living. It's waiting for your life to end, and wishing that you didn't have to carry on. Having this ache, and incapability to feel happy living, doesn't mean that | am going to kill myself; it just means that I wouldn't mind dying.
being passively suicidal is funny as fuck like yeah i don't plan on doing anything but the idea of a gun to my head sounds really fucking good right now.