What's really getting to me right now is how, even if everything else in the world goes perfectly, some things just can't be undone. And that's just killing me.
Kang Seo Joon, thanks for making me feel like I'm not crazy or alone for talking to someone who's gone but still with me. Its been a year and a year of exactly what this scene show. I hope this missing* ends one day.
Not everything is about perfect romance or happy endings. Sometimes, love is simply who your heart still reaches for in your most vulnerable moments, the person who felt like home despite the distance, pain, or unfinished parts.
Coming to terms with the fact that I still grieve us. Maybe that’s why I understood Johan wanting Ryu to be the last thing he saw before the light left his eyes.
It’s New Year’s Day, and I still grieve what was lost. I keep rereading the last page, it wasn’t what I wanted, but I know why it had to end.
I would choose to clean up bottles after the party in every lifetime. But for now, I need to do it for myself.
You brought so much love into my life,
more joy than I ever thought possible.
I gave you all of me.
I am sorry for not being the person you needed.
I am sorry for being the person that tires you out.
Now, I’m learning how to truly let go.
So go on and be great.
Goodbye Dean...
What I really want to say that night
You comforted me just by being there.
I grew up independent and not need anyone.
But in your warm embrace, I found a quiet kind of peace.
You helped me understand parts of myself I didn’t know were missing.
Having someone supports me, stay beside me.. meant the world.
Your smile lit up everything around it.
And in those moments with you, it felt like the world disappeared,
leaving just us… and a kind of happiness I never knew I could feel.
I realised that its been 40 days after the move out... in my hometown we believe that the soul of the dead remains on earth for 40 days after death, gradually making its way to the afterlife.