honestly i may just have a panic disorder unfortunately this has been happening for a long time. the probble is that i compulsively trigger myself instead of idk. not doing that regularly,
genuinely nothing worse. in fact it has inadvertently improved other parts of my ocd with how bad it is becos idgaf if i'm evil or dirty or burning the house down, my brain keeps forcibly terrorizing me with my phobia to check if i'm still terrorized by it??
my ocd loves to rapid cycle through themes to focus on between compulsively checking that distressing thoughts still distress me and checking the lights/stove/fridge and washing my hands but i prefer that becos when it runs out of stupid shit i just have compulsive PANIC ATTACKS.