read books that you don't understand. read books where you have to pay attention. read books that make you reread a page eight times to figure it out. read books that you need to take notes on. read books with words you have to google. read books that don't make sense without research on the setting. read books that make you feel stupid because otherwise you'll just be stupid.
i need to walk again. i need to take photos again. i need to read again. i need to journal again. i need to watch movies again. but most importantly i need to stop losing myself.