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I'm not waving, I'm drowning.

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Lucifer 💜

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There you go, found one

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Two little known facts about #Mental Illness:
1. If someone else also has mental health problems, but you have a symptom or issue that they don't, that issue isn't a real one.
2. Mental health problems will always go away if they are inconvenient to someone else.

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(All the above is bullshit, just before anybody starts replying in a horrified and offended manner. I am in fact holding up a massive SARCASM sign)

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@aweebitblue All the 'one year ago I nearly died and now everything is wonderful!' make me feel worse. Then I feel like a bad selfish person for feeling jealous or whatever of people who got better. So then I feel worse for that too 😔

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Current mood: Agitated, edgy, irritable. Hair annoying me, skin annoying me, all the animals annoying me, all sounds annoying me. Torn between desire to scream and run around, & to go to bed and hide. Yet yesterday? Fine. Why!!!??? What's the bloody difference from then to now?!

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Someone please pass the eye bleach 😣🙈🙈🙈

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I was absolutely hysterical yesterday. The culmination of a 5 day slide into meltdown. A little more level headed today. But still as frustrated and confused
Fuck this life.

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I've showered today AND brushed my teeth. In the same day! Must get off this crazy ride and take a lie down before I burn out

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@erikapatt57 Lol this made me laugh because I've always said that if I'm a beautiful butterfly waiting to transform it would be the one from Bugs Life 😂

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Has anyone ever successfully arranged counselling with agoraphobia & social phobia? The biggest problems I need professional help with are also the reasons I can't make the help work. Managed 2 appointments with Psychiatrist before shutting down and freaking out completely

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@KaJuN00 It's really nice to hear from you. I'm glad you logged on this particular weekend. #teamblanketfort

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Contradictions:
During sessions with a past psychiatric my younger self was told I couldn't describe myself as shy because she'd overheard me chatting to her secretary before my appointment. I am quite good at chatting to strangers. However I have no friends & few family in touch

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@KaJuN00 Definitely been a 'blanket fort and I'm not coming out' sort of weekend. What a crappy way to exist year after year.

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@KaJuN00 @samizdat62 Thanks Keri and also 'hi' 😊. Nice to see you're still about x

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@samizdat62 @KaJuN00 I hope you have a good experience. Law of averages it has to happen to someone at some point, right? But if not i hope someone else (real or on here) helps instead. I get more support on here than I've ever had elsewhere, despite the fact I disappear for months at a time. Hugs x

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@erikapatt57 Maybe under the surface of my pond is a whole magical world.

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@erikapatt57 I always wish I could just jump into your pictures. There is a pond near me & on the few days I feel able to get there it is the closest to peaceful I ever feel. I love nature & the countryside but I'm stuck in a town hellhole. I swear one day I will run away.

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How can I fix shoes on a day when I feel seconds from death? Can't feel that bad after all then can I. Must be making it up. Clearly I'm capable of trying harder really.

Contradictions.

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And now I'm fixing a pair of shoes. Why? Because my daughter needs them for tomorrow. The daughter I've been avoiding all day because my mask is missing. Because I feel so so broken.