amy

edtwt | 21 | 5'10 malnourished baddie

[amy @tallbeanss]

my friend took this candid of me and i look skinny but my ass is so inverted in i look WEIRD

[amy @tallbeanss]

-16 pounds down in 3 weeks
bmi 20.2 -> 17.9

[amy @tallbeanss]

NEWEST BMI 17

[amy @tallbeanss]

why my coworker telling me i barely ate stfu and mind your business

[amy @tallbeanss]

MY COWORKERS ARE TALKING ABOUT RETA BRAH
DURING A PAID LUNCH AND I HAD TO EAT A LILSONI WONT BE SUS

[amy @tallbeanss]

my fat & old coworker said she's on "the peptide" but she wants to take it slow and is proud of dropping 20lbs in a couple months.... mf im 15lbs down in 3 weeks he so fr

[amy @tallbeanss]

@itsIunette it's the gym bro equivalent of a GLP1 like ozempic. glp1 targets just one signal but reta targets hunger, stomach emptying, and reduces food noise. it's used to get lean while retaining muscle but im disordered and have been using it in a bad way

[amy @tallbeanss]

i live with my parents and so i keep my reta at the work fridge in this

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I MISS THE EDRTWT WEEKLY NEWS WHAT HAPPENED TO THAT 😓

[amy @tallbeanss]

okay but when i was depressed because i developed BED & was miserable and gross in my own skin you didn't care ? NOW that i did something to lose the weight it's an issue ?? i finally feel confident again

[amy @tallbeanss]

is it possible to just keep wearing baggy clothes / chugging carbonated drinks and water in order to keep myself looking bigger to my mom? she's getting worried and it's pissing me off

[amy @tallbeanss]

i'm washing the dishes and my mom is sitting on the couch waiting for me to eat it's 11pm i fear this is gonna be the start of another battle

[amy @tallbeanss]

i pray i don't run out of reta now, my mom is so suspicious of my WL im so scared she'll open the package

[amy @tallbeanss]

i'm down to idk how much reta but i wanted to order more BUT my mom is on my ass about me relapsing and i'm scared she'll open the package so i had to cancel it 💔

[amy @tallbeanss]

my mom def found my old hydroxycut pills because she gave me the "you're too skinny and i'm worried about you and i know you're not eating" talk and she mentioned pills and stuff and idk how to get out of it im not even that skinny yet

[amy @tallbeanss]

@itsIunette LFGGG

[amy @tallbeanss]

got really drunk, taco bell devoured at 2am, 4 hours of sleep, AND I LOST 3 POUNDS THIS MORNINT CAN I GET A HELL YEAH

[amy @tallbeanss]

all he did was hold my hand why is this the closest i've come to my heart exploding

[amy @tallbeanss]

i crave affection so desperately and deeply

[amy @tallbeanss]

i felt physically ill listening to "what's wrong with me?" by Olivia Rodrigo for the first time because of how relateable it is for someone with an ED