ADHD Taylor is Always Thinking

ADHD, 32 | dx & medicated 11-18. Learning about ADHD 20 years later. | depression. anxiety. insomnia. PTSD. PMDD. bulimia | Processing all of it. she/her

[ADHD Taylor is Always Thinking @taylor_thinks_]

How did I get this far into adulthood before realizing jigsaw puzzles make me feel so calm and balanced? Like, A LOT! Got this one last weekend, finished last night. Today I went to the store and got five more. Taylor: 1, Depression & anxiety: 0 (today)

[ADHD Taylor is Always Thinking @taylor_thinks_]

@onechaoticbrain Sometimes when I get stuck, I remember using my hands helps me disconnect. Chores, plant care, coloring, drawing, painting, jigsaw puzzles w music/podcast.

Hope you find your things/activities soon. I & other peeps find revisiting fave childhood activities brings peace 💜

[ADHD Taylor is Always Thinking @taylor_thinks_]

@onechaoticbrain addressed, knew, learned about ADHD until last Dec. I graduated college 10 yrs ago, had a handful of profesh jobs I liked and hated. Then last year, dx with MDD, insomnia, anxiety. I learned these comorbidities can make ADHD symptoms worse, and meds for all make it manageable.

[ADHD Taylor is Always Thinking @taylor_thinks_]

@adhdasiangirl Me, me, me.
It’s hyper focus, feeling unwelcome and like a nuisance, it was easy to get lost in books aka “quiet activity”
Paired with my perfectionism, there was no option for not achieving. (definitely cheated my fair share & relied on writing skills to get A/Bs)

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ADHD is: addicted to being productive

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@Seaflock Ahhh saaaaame. It’s really challenging to keep that internal monologue in my brain.

[ADHD Taylor is Always Thinking @taylor_thinks_]

Perpetually trying to remind myself to look for at least one positive thing.

In therapy, when asked, I reluctantly start with a mundane thing, which leads to more positive things, neutralizing the dread

[sydni | what in the ADHD? @WhatTheADHD]

I really don't understand how my brain can be super dedicated to an idea, and get really excited and motivated to do it, but the 4 seconds later it's like, "ya know what, nevermind." 🫠

[ADHD Taylor is Always Thinking @taylor_thinks_]

@theADHDacademic Quietest floor in the library. A cubby desk (the one like a cubicle). Or a big table to spread out. Sometimes with a friend, if I’m at least 50% confident about knowing the material.
Writing: instrumental music only, no pop covers.

[ADHD Taylor is Always Thinking @taylor_thinks_]

@WhatTheADHD *unvalued

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@WhatTheADHD Feeling invaluable. Degrading management and supervisors. Being told “no” for my creative strategies. And lack of good sleep. Recipe for “meets expectations” aka not overachieving is a confidence disaster.

Really sucks you’re going thru it

[ADHD Taylor is Always Thinking @taylor_thinks_]

@AutSciPerson Gasp! Me too! Addicted to feeling useful. Like there is something to prove. Our brains always knew we were NT, but it took a long time for us to comprehend.

What does it all meeeeaaannn

[ADHD Taylor is Always Thinking @taylor_thinks_]

@WhatTheADHD FWIW, my ENT said I have excellent hearing, better than most (results of a hearing test), and there are no signs of hearing loss. The ringing and popping occur throughout the day, which suggests it’s not bc of my ears. Likely stress✔️ grinding/clenching jaw✔️

[ADHD Taylor is Always Thinking @taylor_thinks_]

@WhatTheADHD Wearing nice earplugs helps esp. in loud movies, concerts etc.

Light sensitivity is less frequent, but headache/eye ache inducing & nauseating. I attribute it to Vertical Heterophoria, as it occurs when not wearing my glasses. Driving during sunset is the worst!

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A depression record: sleeping 1 - 8:30am, skip workout class and fall back asleep until noon. Scroll 📜 home for 45 min, fall asleep until 2, get out of bed at 2:30pm.

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@ADHDdesigner Me!

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@lilyforaheart Heavy sigh.
It’s just so difficult. I had a test 1.5 weeks ago (ok, holiday) but my doc was supposed to call the next day or the day after w/results. I have other shit going on, and don’t have the energy to ask wtf is going on.
And that’s 1/5 medical pros I see regularly.

[ADHD Taylor is Always Thinking @taylor_thinks_]

If I only use the edit button in iMessage from now on, the real me would be revealed

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@StrivingAutist @jumpingoktopus Me too. Hope you’re ok