Hi!
Holocaust historian here. Let me see if I can help. That wasn't a "weird salute." It was a Hitler salute. Because Elon is a fucking Nazi.
Hope that helps!
A healing stage is disgust. Yes, disgust. You will be DISGUSTED by the people whose love you seeked. You will feel embarrassed about the choices you made and the people who had access to you who didn’t deserve it. Feel this feeling then let it go.
That will NEVER be you again.
Before this year ends, I want to say congratulations to everyone on making it another year. I’m proud of you. You made it out stronger, kinder, softer. I hope next year is good to you. You deserve all the happiness it can give.