@ghvstofyous messy.
“no! no, of course not… i’m so sorry. did it sound weird? i thought you’d like seeing the flowers, maybe i was out of line—i’m really sorry.”
@ghvstofyous burn. surely he didn’t catch that quite right? jesus, for someone who was hesitant about opening up to him, they’ve thrown that question around without a worry.
jud scratches the back of his neck, a nervous habit of his. he already knows his words are going to come out +
@ghvstofyous every day. i also need to confess my sins, it’s not exclusive to the congregation.”
but that’s not something bernie needs to worry about. they won’t be getting close to that booth if they visit.
“but don’t worry. i am not dragging you in there at all. we could +
@ghvstofyous i know you’re probably not alone in it.”
/your pain/, he wants to say. he looks at bernie with a certain kindness. everyone’s history is worth knowing, how could they ever think the opposite?
“i’m glad to be the first, then. i told you, i’m good at listening.”
@ghvstofyous did in his “past life”, as he likes to call it, were all a product of his own hatred, his own ambition. other people find themselves thrown into awful positions instead of being able to choose.
“i won’t assume anything about you,” he reassures them, voice soft, “but +
@ghvstofyous asshole. fortunately, it doesn’t seem to be the case here.
“ah, i don’t think so. lots of other people have tougher battles.”
then, for a brief second, he wonders just how annoying he’d be if he /insisted/. but isn’t that the whole point, anyway? trying to make people +
@ghvstofyous non-believers. i won’t judge anyone, for that fact,” he looks into bernie’s eyes; there’s always a pang of pain when he speaks about this, “God knows i once was a sinner, and in many ways i still am. who am i to hold someone’s history against them?”
@ghvstofyous their “compliment” makes jud smile. he appreciates that his efforts don’t go unnoticed—even if they’re not efforts at all.
“love your neighbour as yourself.”
one of Jesus’ commandments, and perhaps one of His best and biggest lessons, in jud’s opinion.
“i won’t judge +