Tea4Tee

Waxing poetic (“Ranting”? “Dumping”?) about #mentalhealth (“Life”?) struggles. #trauma #ptsd #anxiety #migraine

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Here’s a theory.

#Trauma doesn’t make people less able to describe emotions.

It makes people experience emotions they don’t have words for.

#PTSD

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I feel my nervous system tense up and throw my body into #panic

My brain whispers “this will be the end of you -“

But before the thought properly wisps into existence, my brain bellows

“THIS WILL BE THE END OF THE HOBBITS!”

#dorkwithptsd #PTSD

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Forgot to take morning drugs until after 1pm.

Oooooooh boy.

#PTSD

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Drove to the cottage to sleep all day.

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@wendyevaK He seems incredibly immature. =[

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Maybe… the more “trauma informed” they are, the less trustworthy they are… because they trust their judgement of limited information more and they listen and hear so so much less.

#PTSD #Trauma

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@wendyevaK Nothing positive came out of it?

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@wendyevaK Red flags are so, so clear in hindsight. It’s ok that you were in the thick of it and couldn’t see them then.

-.- I’m so tired.

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I’m case any therapists see this… maybe don’t ask us to show you our proverbial privates seven minutes into our first date?

#PTSD

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@wendyevaK Why do they believe us about some things and not others?

>.< ;_;

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@wendyevaK Yeah… I can see that too.

Sorry, yo. It’s stupid.

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@TherapyAfterCSA Agreed… it would have been much better to have a flow chart of her dismissal criteria before putting any hope into this. Or even just a note on her website:

“Only accepting rich clients with mild issues presenting in simple ways that can be approached in my rigid modality.”

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Finally got off the waitlist.

Then she said it wasn’t a good fit.

Back to zero.

#PTSD

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@wendyevaK I guess not? Which suggests she really wasn’t a good fit. Like… once I could calm down and look back at the interaction, her saying it wasn’t a fit was symptomatic of it not being a fit.

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Testing out a new therapist next week. =|

#PTSD

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Me, my SO, and my cat are in a cuddle pile.

I reeeeeeeally should be working but SO is asleep…

=3

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@TruthPathing (I’ll take them all)

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@TruthPathing False dichotomies! Black and white thinking! ^_~

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A haunting thought just occurred to me.

The older your house is, the more likely it is that someone died there.

🤔 lol

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I wonder if lack of trust in my opinions will lead to me staying in toxic environments, or to sticking out normal turbulence to create stronger ties.

#PTSD

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I’m considering accepting that I’ve failed to have a career in science and quit my job.

My disability has taught me not to trust my opinions or decisions, so who knows if my emotions are reasonable.

#PTSD