beck

167 cm || cw: 51.1 kg || gw: 45 kg || mdni

[beck @teateancoffee]

hiiii now that im getting active on account of my relapse im on a #edrtwt moothunt !
20 (05) / any pronouns
- cw: 51.1 kg / cgw: 45 kg / 167 cm / bmi 18.3
- basic dni + under 18
- luv art / music / reading / writing / etc ! currently reading slouching towards bethlehem

[beck @teateancoffee]

my biggest accomplishment this year is becoming the kind of person who drinks iced americanos

[beck @teateancoffee]

im STILL maintaining so looking back on progress is all i got rn

[beck @teateancoffee]

another #comparisonspo for myself !! same tanktop

[beck @teateancoffee]

@fluorescani yessss !!!! like i hate people saying "oh you just got more confidence" or something like if anything im more neurotic and insecure after losing weight like at my hw i wasnt weighing myself every time i saw a scale!!!!!

[beck @teateancoffee]

i dont have a high sw like i was chubby idk but even still its crazy how much nicer people are to you when you are skinnier. like maybe its hypocritical of me to speak on it but the social validation i got from weight loss did push me further into my ed and it didnt even form

[beck @teateancoffee]

@faunsteps i hope you get there as safely as you can! skinny privilege isnt a joke unfortunately </3 but i also hope theres people around you that care about you no matter your size 🩶

[beck @teateancoffee]

for me because i wanted to be more conventionally attractive or something ! and i hate that i am helping perpetuate this culture of valuing thinness by caring so much about my own weight like there's no winning

[beck @teateancoffee]

im not ready to go back to uni and be the biggest one there 😭😭😭 i cant win the european art school ed off

[yuue @vrsxtle]

wasting calories on absolute bullshit

[beck @teateancoffee]

im starting to see the tiniest thigh gap but my scale shows im still maintaining ?? + the measurements havent changed what the hell is going on

[beck @teateancoffee]

no disrespect i understand it im just jealous

[beck @teateancoffee]

the skinniest person on edtwt rn is posting a bodycheck going im so average :(

[beck @teateancoffee]

i genuinely cannot stand seeing wl progress tiktoks that are actually just ads for some bullshit on tiktok shop or an ai app. no im not downloading """baddie protocol""" and im not buying some """cutting mix""" nonsense

[beck @teateancoffee]

@faunsteps LITERALLYYYY like can it be required for all restaurants to have a list of calories in their food somewhere so i dont feel like i have to log 500 extra calories just in case

[beck @teateancoffee]

eyeballing calories is so scary what if someone put a whole stick of butter in this

[beck @teateancoffee]

huge torso skinny legs is a hellish build to have why do i look like someones 40 year old alcoholic uncle

[beck @teateancoffee]

soon ill be back in uni and can use my food scale and never eat out both because of the whole ed thing but also because everyone around me and i are broke ⭐️

[beck @teateancoffee]

affirmations the break up was for the better and now i can focus on my eating disorder and i shouldnt text them

[beck @teateancoffee]

and then ill see how i look at 45 kg probably hate it and come up w another plan

[beck @teateancoffee]

wl rewards thread cause im bored !

[beck @teateancoffee]

-6 kg (45 kg)
nipple piercings theyre my dreammmm but i want my chest SMALL before i get them