Someone asked me "do you still love him?"
I said "idk honestly."
Whenever I was asked this, I answered them a straightforward "yes, of course".
But now, I'm not sure anymore.
I mean, we don't fight. We casually talk, laugh, eat together, taking care of the baby and all
But
I see no passion of loving him anymore.
Intimacy? Yes. It's more of "sex" rather than "making love". Coz frankly speaking, I lost spark towards him. I guess, we're doing it just to satisfy each other's needs. But no love was involved after all.
Nagtataka ako kasi sa 2 exes ko, super boto ang families na yon for me para maging DIL pero etong family ng baby daddy ko super hirap pakisamahan. Lagi ako nale-left out tas wala akong kakampi. Not even the dad of my baby understands me.
Woke up this morning without him preparing my breakfast and just told me to prepare my own coffee. He's tired at work, feels sleepy, so he just let himself laid while me just waking up after a mere 2hrs sleep then in a few minutes, will take care of the baby again.