i wanna rant about how i’m feeling but i don’t know where to begin or how to even explain what i’m feeling
i just don’t feel ok but worse than just that
was just walking home with my partner and this random cat crossed the street and came to us, then we jokingly said we were gonna take the cat home and the cat started to actually follow us home, we had to ran at some point to lose the cat and not accidentally steal it lol
there’s a house in my street being renovated and there are two construction workers giving everyone in the street a free concert, they are now singing zombie by the cranberries, something about this is just beautiful
out of surgery now, the procedure seems to have gone well.
hopefully no infections otherwise i’ll have to have a second procedure.
the doctors and nurses were really caring which made this a whole different experience from the usual expected from nhs.
hospital drugs are the best over ANY other drugs
had some fentanyl and morphine, feeling like i’m in a cloud
although still some intense pain >.<
have some codeine to help manage the pain at home
one thing i never knew was how painful a miscarriage can be, both emotionally and physically. nothing i ever experienced in my life has hurt me like this.
it’s hard to express exactly what i’m feeling, it’s hard to open up, it’s hard to just feel.
it’s hard to cope right now.
On 11th September 2024 I found out I was pregnant, by far the happiest I’ve ever felt in my whole life. On 10th October 2024, I had a miscarriage.
This is the worst I’ve ever felt. Nothing makes sense anymore.
I’ve never been so heartbroken.
Never forgotten, forever loved. 🖤