@flygodT you are right . People who pay for everything always resent the recipient at a point some might accept it some might not but I have been there.
did it for my family and girls but that was then now I know the world will always move with ke or without me
my last act of staying sane is setting my family straight. the burden on me is actually much but I don't have or I still have that power anymore . I am literally sinking i hope I can help myself or leave everyone