When you live in the prensent it doent mean all you problems will go away. It means you will lern to exist dispite having problems and still be chill about it wheil focusing on thing you can control.
Most of the bad decision that i made wouldnt have happened if i took a moment and realy thought about what i was about to do. Not just going with how i was feeling.
So that's where I'm starting. Not with a new income stream. With honesty about where I am.
Last year of being broke starts with the truth, not the motivation.
FST. Face it. Story check. True or familiar.
I'm not perfect at this yet. But I'm building a new identity, and that takes reps, not revelations.
Run FST before you act. Every time.
I used to react to everything I felt. Anger. Spend. Loneliness. Drink. Shame. Withdraw. I wasn't living, I was just responding.
Here's the framework I'm using to break that. 🧵
Most people think accounting is about numbers. It's actually about attention. The money was always there. what was missing was the discipline to track it properly.
I may not always understand why I fall back into old patterns, but I can still learn from them and change the conditions around me.
Maybe the real power isn’t “absolute control”… Maybe it’s awareness—and slowly shaping yourself over time.
Still learning. Still building.
I watched a video about free will and determinism, and it messed with my head at first.
It made me question everything my choices, my discipline, even my struggles with drinking.
But the more I thought about it, the more I realized something important:
Whether life is fully determined or not, your actions still matter.
Because your life is shaped by the environments you stay in, the habits you build, and the decisions you repeat.