Going upwards in consciousness and forward in the world (striving for mastery courage and love) daily Stay with your routine stay with gurdjief and Carl Jung( everyday every interaction is a chance to integrate shadow/anima) leave steiner for now
burn the boats. every person who ever did something enormous made retreat impossible first - cut off their own escape, stood on the shore and watched the way back go up in flames - and that terrifying finality is precisely what set them free to go all in. you can’t sprint at something while keeping one foot planted in the life you swore you would leave behind.
The evidence does not show that the most successful people are conscious every second. Instead, it shows they tend to have:
—Better control over where attention goes.
—Faster recovery when attention drifts.
—Longer periods of sustained concentration.
—Greater ability to enter flow states.
Leave your head go into your body or be immersed in her or the moment anywhere except your head being present in your body and not thinking about what to say next instead of feeling what's happening right now in the moment (mindfulness) or people will perceive you to lack empathy
The secret to not being awkward is to never force conversation. Don’t try to come up with interesting things to say, don’t talk to people for the sake of talking, don’t voice opinions or ask questions to sound smart. Instead, notice your own curiosity and follow it. If you don’t have any, radiate comfort in your silence.