Medical anxiety. I’m sure you’ve already researched it. Or GAD. Currently you’re hyper focused on the medical issue and fear of the unknown. Your mind is in a constant state of “what ifs” and “how to’s”. Always assuming the worst. When negative ruminations start swirling in your mind, focus on your breath. Slowing it down. Just this little switch will break the negative thought loop. You have a lot of people offering suggestions and you’re grabbing at all possibilities.
If you haven’t already, consider an anti anxiety med for a period of time. Over time, you will start to recognize your baseline thought patterns. Not patterns of negative rumination. This gives you a sense of peace knowing that the negative thoughts are not your baseline thoughts patterns but thoughts made out of fear and the unknown. Then the %’s of negative to normal thought patterns will switch in your favor. As you’re going about your day, recognize and acknowledge the negative thought as what it is, “just a negative thought” take a few breaths and move on.
Have a great day today! Focus on your breath. Love on your family. That fatty lipoma will be gone soon enough.
@StockSavvyShay Would a company like @PlugPowerInc be able to help power the sites? Set up equalizers on site. They have deliverable hydrogen stations at several points across the SE.