one of the hardest things to grieve is the effort you never got back. all the patience, reassurance, understanding, and love that simply disappeared into someone else.
I really dislike the concept of “we experience people differently” because what have I done for you to be horrible to me but kind to the next person?? 😭
I’m so talked out, im not addressing anything anymore. The answers you want are always in people’s actions. I no longer want an explanation as to why people chose to be weird when it comes to me. Your actions were enough for me to realize you’re not who I THOUGHT you were
Unfortunately, I do want a provider. I do want a protector. I do want a leader. I do want a dominant man. I do want emotional maturity and effective communication. I do want mental stability. I do want to be spoiled. I do want self awareness. I do want clingy, obsessed and safe. I do want someone who chooses me every time. And nobody is going to make me feel bad for wanting those things in a partner.