running to stand still

Mom, grandma, artist, knitter, maker, (over)thinker, U2 fan, disabled, survivor, dreamer. CPTSD/GAD/MDD/Fibro #thebloggesstribe
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🎶 if you listen you can hear the silence say
When you think you're done
You've just begun. 🎶
#U2 #LoveIsBigger

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Loving this new/old U2 song, and glad it's finally out of the vault and into our ears
https://t.co/VfIp2YJATH

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This came too late for too many, including my beautiful sister in law Lisa. I hope it works. 💔
A suicide prevention net on the iconic Golden Gate Bridge is now complete. Construction of the three-quarter mile safety net began in 2018. https://t.co/1tlq0pNz8a

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I have had no contact with my mother for the past 5 years, despite her living a mile away. I thankfully don't feel any regret or anything left unsaid btwn us, although as a human I wish I or anyone had been there in the end as she died alone & scared in the dark waiting for help.

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So I had another novel experience yesterday: policeman at the door, asking to come in, I'm shaking thinking please god not one of my kids please god please god (btw, I'm an atheist, lol.)
And no, it wasn't them but it was my mom who passed away. And all I can feel is relief.

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Two weddings in one week and suddenly my oldest doesn't have the name I chose for her 32 years ago. I did not know that part would be so emotional!
So now 50% of my kids have a legit spouse. 🤯

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On Sunday I will have a truly novel experience that I have never experienced before: one of my children (son, 26) is getting married! I know I'll be crying all the tears.
Especially since his elder sister is getting married later the same week and I am distinctly not invited. 🫥

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Diana hasn't used this window hammock for a year, but I'm glad I left it there. Who wouldn't want to hang out there with that view? #caturday #diana

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Plzzz...Can you help me to win 4 Freebies？Absolutely Yes！
https://t.co/WITGMrztll

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Can you take the gift and accept my invitation? I'm giving you a gift cuz i already got 1 $0 item!
https://t.co/TuWxeLsbqD

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@TheBloggess Happy zombie Jesus day, Jenny!

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@MyBleedingInk2 Thank you, my friend.

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Suddenly unsure there is actually anyone who cares about me in this entire world. I can't think of anyone. Fuck Elon for ruining the tribe I had here. Now I have no one that's not getting paid. What is the exact point?

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One of my favorite days...sea glass, rocks, and crystals cleaning day! This is just one small bowl's worth but I need to get the rust removed from the jar before I put these back.

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I don't even know how much of #thebloggesstribe is still here, but I'm here, asking for help again. I really need a bag of cat food for Diana, can anyone help? #diana #CatsOfTwitter

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Somebody had a birthday! 💗

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@timneufeld Never that.

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So I joined threads but I don't see a ton of my peeps there. Bluesky invite code, anyone? Where else is everyone going? I'm slowly accepting that twitter might not be viable forever, although I'm still here now. Obviously, lol

[Jesus Arroyo @MyBleedingInk2]

https://t.co/yPNvCpOU1I Please click the link to read (and share!) this important update on Kischa. Some positive, some negative. As always, donations r appreciated. Your kindness helps pay for 1 of her meds which ≠ not covered by insurance, & renal friendly food. Thank you ❤️

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So a couple weeks ago there was a shooting in that exact alley! Yipes!

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Two gentlemen are loudly discussing firearms in the alley behind my room. I wonder if they are cops, because who else uses that term.
Sketchy motel is sketchy, and it's nowhere near nighttime yet. 😬

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I did put in my ticket requests during the fan club presale that's going on right now, but I only have until 10pm tomorrow to decide if I can swing it or not.
Money can absolutely buy you happiness, and a night of extreme bliss and true healing.
Can I afford NOT to be there?

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Sudden prospect of a second trip to Vegas to celebrate the finale of U2 at Sphere. I know that last night, in March, is going to be an absolute corker!
But... Ugh. My last trip cost about $300 total and I don't think I can afford that again. Fucking reality bites! #u2fan #u2vegas