That's so damn hard. But... I'm slowly starting to understand that this is also beautiful. Don't get me wrong, I love this baby already... More than anything, it's ours. It's the way I feel in my own body that makes me feel AWFUL.
I will retweet this on my rp accounts: If I'm not answering I'm not ignoring you I'm just lazy to rp these days and i'm barely on twitter, I'll get back to it somehow i just have other stuff to do, and i'm on con this week end.
If I keep it I'm going to end up at the bottom of the hole hating myself, If I abort I'll blame myself for the rest of my life. In both case I just very seriously want to fucking die right now.