I grew up in a dark place. I love my family and I’m grateful for the lessons I learned but I suffered a lot along the way. When I was in high school I saw a Craigslist ad of a farm looking to get rid of some puppies. I drove 2 hours in my beat up Acura and with my money saved from my retail job I bought my best friend. I named him Swift. He became a light that I never knew I could have.
I didn’t know what true love was before him. I had never had the chance to witness it. But I quickly learned the definition because of him. He held me thru breakups and hard ships. He held me when I lost my mom. He held me when I lost my identity. He held me when I couldn’t get up. Some struggles I’ve faced over the years made me wonder if I should be alive or if I should let myself go. But I always had a tether holding me. My beautiful boy who loved me unconditionally in a way that kept me here. Some days I didn’t even have it in me to get out of bed and Swift would remind me it’s time to get up. I have never loved anyone or anything the way I love Swift.
For 15 years he was the light of my life. The reason for my world. And now he’s not here. I don’t know how I’m going to survive.
For 15 years he was the first thing I saw in the morning and the last thing I saw before falling asleep.
When we would go for walks he wouldn’t watch the path he would turn back and constantly make sure I was still with him. What he didn���t know is I needed him as much as he needed me.
To say I’m heart broken is an understatement. I’m shattered down to my core. The only consistent love I’ve ever had in my life is gone. I would move mountains for Swift, and I promise I fucking tried. I’ve lost a part of my soul with him.
I wish I could do more. I wish I got more. I would give anything in the world right now to have him next to me. I’ve experienced a lot of grief in my life but this is a rare kind. I’ve loved Swift more than I loved myself on numerous occasions. I would do it all again. Every appointment, every cancelled plan, every adjustment in my schedule to make sure he got what he needed. I love that dog more than I love life itself. I hope he knows that. Thank you all for loving him too.
I grew up in a dark place. I love my family and I’m grateful for the lessons I learned but I suffered a lot along the way. When I was in high school I saw a Craigslist ad of a farm looking to get rid of some puppies. I drove 2 hours in my beat up Acura and with my money saved from my retail job I bought my best friend. I named him Swift. He became a light that I never knew I could have.
I didn’t know what true love was before him. I had never had the chance to witness it. But I quickly learned the definition because of him. He held me thru breakups and hard ships. He held me when I lost my mom. He held me when I lost my identity. He held me when I couldn’t get up. Some struggles I’ve faced over the years made me wonder if I should be alive or if I should let myself go. But I always had a tether holding me. My beautiful boy who loved me unconditionally in a way that kept me here. Some days I didn’t even have it in me to get out of bed and Swift would remind me it’s time to get up. I have never loved anyone or anything the way I love Swift.
For 15 years he was the light of my life. The reason for my world. And now he’s not here. I don’t know how I’m going to survive.
For 15 years he was the first thing I saw in the morning and the last thing I saw before falling asleep.
When we would go for walks he wouldn’t watch the path he would turn back and constantly make sure I was still with him. What he didn’t know is I needed him as much as he needed me.
To say I’m heart broken is an understatement. I’m shattered down to my core. The only consistent love I’ve ever had in my life is gone. I would move mountains for Swift, and I promise I fucking tried. I’ve lost a part of my soul with him.
I wish I could do more. I wish I got more. I would give anything in the world right now to have him next to me. I’ve experienced a lot of grief in my life but this is a rare kind. I’ve loved Swift more than I loved myself on numerous occasions. I would do it all again. Every appointment, every cancelled plan, every adjustment in my schedule to make sure he got what he needed. I love that dog more than I love life itself. I hope he knows that. Thank you all for loving him too.
While @iitachiyomi have made some steps to differentiate themselves as an unofficial fan account, they still make posts with misleading language and imagery which confuses our users to this day thinking we are one and the same or are partnered somehow.
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I just wanted to take a moment to say thank you.
A few days ago, I’d started to feel utterly hopeless. I began questioning whether I was honestly losing my mind after spending too much time online, consuming sensationalist content that often felt confusingly at odds with reality.
Since releasing the latest video, I’ve been overwhelmed by thousands of messages from viewers around the world who’ve genuinely restored my faith in humanity. I no longer feel alone any more.
It seems so many of you feel the same way, tired of the direction content creation seems to be heading. It’s clear this conversation is about something far bigger and more unsettling than just Japan or YouTube.
This week has left me feeling more optimistic, but also an emotionally drained wreck. Something I briefly alluded to at the end of the most recent video.
Going forward, I plan to spend drastically less time on the internet and social media (outside of releasing Abroad in Japan videos). It’s become obvious it really hasn’t been doing my health much good this year.
Recent trips to remote islands and mountain villages have reminded me that the best things in life aren’t found on a screen. They’re outdoors. Or moments surrounded with wonderful people.
With that in mind, I want to spend the rest of my time looking up at the world, not down at my phone.
From the bottom of my heart, thank you to each and every one of you for your support now and over the years I’ve been lucky to do this 🙏
hello everyone, I am okay and thank you for all of the kind messages, sorry I cannot respond to them all 🩷
Yesterday, the man who assaulted me was allowed to cross multiple barriers at twitchcon and even in front of another creators meet and greet to grab me and my face and try to kiss me. Fortunately he wasn't able to, but a lot of people have pointed out it could have been a lot worse!
I'm obviously shaken up by what happened and it's not the first time I've dealt with something like this, but to tell you honestly, I am a lot more hurt and upset by how Twitch handled it during and after the fact.
Like I said, I don't understand how he was allowed to make it to me in the first place. The security in the clip who reacts is my own security (it's true my favorite and usual security guard was banned for holding a stalkers arm to bring him to police, at a past Twitchcon)
However, there were at least 3 or 4 other Twitchcon security staff in the area who did not react and let the guy walk away, as you can see in the clip since they don't even appear in the frame LOL
The woman who is walking me away is my own personal manager, and behind the booth, the only two people who were checking on me and comforting me were her and my friend. None of the Twitchcon staff came to ask what happened or if I was okay.
My friend who was present told me Twitch security were also behind the booth afterwards joking about how they didn't even see what happened and immediately laughing and moving on to talking about something else.
So if no one was checking if I was okay or if I needed anything and they let the guy run away initially, I have no idea what anyone hired to keep the event safe was doing LOL
In Twitch's statement they said that the guy was immediately caught and detained, I'm sorry but that is a blatant lie. He was allowed to walk away from my meet and greet and I didn't hear he was caught until hours after he attacked me, and it felt like this only happened because of my manager pressing for it, not because Twitchcon staff present thought it was a big deal.
I have a lot more I want to say but I will say it on stream later today instead of writing a book on here.
Thank you guys again, sorry you all had to see that. This is definitely my last Twitchcon, and it saddens me to say as a 10 year off and on attendee of Twitchcon, I think other creators should seriously consider not attending in the future. I did not feel cared for or protected, even bringing my own security and staff. I can't imagine how creators without those options would feel.
Stay safe y'all, everything is going to be okay
Bin zwar jetzt was late damit, aber das ganze MrBeast Drama ist actually crazy und ich finds krass das ich davon aus der deutschen Szene nach gar keine Reaktionen gesehen habe. #mrbeast#YouTubeDE
@iBlali Ja stimmt, habe mal die neue AppleVision Pro in nem Store ausprobiert und ich glaube ich könnte das Ding nicht länger als 1h Stunde tragen ohne Nackenschmerzen zu bekommen.
@LogitechG G502 Lightspeed & G910. Had these for the last 4 years and they are still holding strong. Some of the rubber on my mouse fell of though and I had to glue it back on😅