tab

[tab @thespinalremain]

im seriously suffering here. i dont know how long im going to keep hurting myself for this to feel okay again.

[tab @thespinalremain]

? fuck you?

[tab @thespinalremain]

when i wanted to get diagnosed, the person asked me one question: if i remember how i acted in my childhood. i told them i wasnt really conscious and they took it as i was normal and just dismissed my case.

[tab @thespinalremain]

tell me why i deserve all these bad things. the guy who cannot take no for an answer and an ex that keeps harassibg me with pictures of me.

[tab @thespinalremain]

my art is never good enough:(

[tab @thespinalremain]

its so fucking annoying, ok? just because you talked to me once doesnt mean we are friends.

[tab @thespinalremain]

i want to off the dms options in all the social media platforms, especially instagram. some senior keeps texting me out of the blue.

[tab @thespinalremain]

its always me having to beg them to spend time with me but they would wholeheartedly agree to others’ plan….. i always come back to them apologising first even though i know they were in the wrong…. i just knew they wouldnt apologise first….

[tab @thespinalremain]

my friends… they dont really care …..

[tab @thespinalremain]

i have severe anger issues too, but no one takes me seriously. i try to explain myself to them that i dont mean to lash out but they just wont…..

[tab @thespinalremain]

fuck, ill never get good things in my life.

[tab @thespinalremain]

are you sure youre even a certified professional?

[tab @thespinalremain]

when i tell my counsellors my interests in metal, they told me to stop listening to that…. i told you it made me happy.

[tab @thespinalremain]

everytime i show a vulnerability they would just shut me down…… fuck, i cant do therapy either…. i have severe social anxiety and it stressed me out so much i cannot get my voice out there….

[tab @thespinalremain]

i wanted to express my frustration but ….

[tab @thespinalremain]

the oc i wanted so bad…. i thought my paypal was going to work but turns out it wouldnt work….

[tab @thespinalremain]

why do you keep talking to me like we are dating? it has been a year get over it……

[tab @thespinalremain]

this shit is not even funny anymore. he wont stop sending me old pictures of me, he keeps telling me that i dont want to communicate with him properly. have it come across your mind that maybe i dont fucking want to?

[tab @thespinalremain]

i told him to delete but he keep saying he didnt even save it. when i asked him why he kept sending the pictures he said in an accusatory tone that all i did was “spout nonsense”. bitch i will strangle you

[tab @thespinalremain]

i want to fucking kill myself