thethingsthatliveinsideme

I have always had a LOT of nightmares, but lately things have been weirder than usual...

I'm Leeza by the way.

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@applekations Holy shit

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I've been staring at this all day since I blacked out trying to sketch my nightmare this morning(puzzle msn again) What the fuck? My head hurts from wracking my brain for an answer. I just keep coming up with dead ends... This feels different this time. I don't know how...

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@InevitableJimmy I was hoping writing down these experiences would help me figure out what's wrong with me. So far I only have more questions...

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In my nightmares I keep seeing a forest near my house. I don't know if any of you are familiar with the caprock but there are no woods within 100 miles of my home. Maybe nothing, but they are there in the same place a lot. They call to me. I hate trying to make sense of nonsense.

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@InevitableJimmy I dont know. I didnt make that?

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Thewoodsareprettyinacreepysortofwaydontyouthink?IalmostfeellikeIwouldbesafethere.ineedtogobeforethatthingfindsmeagain...

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@InevitableJimmy Sure.

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I don't think ancestry is ever getting back to me...

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My nightmares have all but completely isolated me.

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It is an unnerving trait of my nightmares that they tend to lure me into secluded places before going off the rails. A room just out of site, or the spot furthest from the exit. A curiosity that I have to first inevitably give in to. I feel on edge when I'm alone and awake now...

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A shadow passing in the dark...

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I fucking hate waking up alone like this... My brain plays tricks on me in the dark, and I get stuck in fight or flight mode some times. It's really hard to calm down right now...

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I don't understand my nightmares.
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Is this what alien abduction is like?
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I don't feel well...

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My dad asked if I was sure, but his voice was like ice on the back of my neck. His hands were cold & rough, and he tracked in mud, caked on his boots...

I could hear the Carpenters in the back singing about "hurting eachother."

I don't want to know who was lying on the floor.

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My dad was giving me a tour of an old, partly collapsed house. He told me when people used to live there the kids weren't allowed to smile/play unless far from the house. I saw a hall leading to rooms in the back, but I told dad I didn't want to know what or who was back there...

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@InevitableJimmy Shit! Are you serious?

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No where to go, but driving all day beats being inside. David has been driving me since I can't. He's sweet like that. I tried to take photos and not fall asleep.

This one came out nicely.