⿻ th͟r͟o͟ugh the ͟p͟ane

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[ً @holyaches]

i became good at pretending. i became so good that after a while the lines blurred between my truth and fiction. and sometimes， when i did a really good job of pretending， i even fooled myself.

[⿻ th͟r͟o͟ugh the ͟p͟ane @thewindowwithin]

would you like to share more on this now that twitter isn’t down?

[ᴡᴀʟᴋ ‘ᴇᴍ ᴅᴏᴡɴ .ᐟ @GRAVEDANCED]

twitter’s down i should’ve been born a girl

[⿻ th͟r͟o͟ugh the ͟p͟ane @thewindowwithin]

⠀⠀( pausing )
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀if you don’t yell at anyone.

[⿻ th͟r͟o͟ugh the ͟p͟ane @thewindowwithin]

( mary spends the whole time fidgeting with their own hands and thinking.
⠀⠀⠀⠀how much trouble could it be? )

maybe i can.. convince them to give you a visitor’s pass or.. something,

[𝐟𝐮𝐧𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐥 𝐠𝐨𝐝𝐝𝐞𝐬𝐬 . @amorymortem]

( the trip back is quiet. not in the way they usually enjoy when sharing the space but in a way that is tense and heavy.

this is not what xena pictured when getting back to see mary. still, there's a part in her that understands. )

[⿻ th͟r͟o͟ugh the ͟p͟ane @thewindowwithin]

it’s fixable.

⠀⠀( a dry laugh, then grunting as she’s lifted to her feet. ) thank you—i think i just need.. rest.

[𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐒𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐄𝐂𝐑𝐎𝐖 𝐏𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐂𝐄 @DANCEDlNLIFE]

you don't sound okay.

( slowly helping her stand up. making sure he didn't drop her. )

[⿻ th͟r͟o͟ugh the ͟p͟ane @thewindowwithin]

it’s fine if you— oh,
⠀⠀( she feels a little bad, brows pinching. )

i don’t want you to have to go to too much trouble, i can make it out to my car,

[THE 𝘕𝘈𝘜𝘛 IN 𝘈𝘚𝘛𝘙𝘖𝘕𝘈𝘜𝘛 .ᐟ @SH0ULDNTBEHERE]

no problem! um... i don't-- oh!

(turning to go through his bag and out comes a lunch box. excuse him as he tries to get the ice pack out of it.)

[bun 🪽 @bunviie__]

doncha jus LOVE thursdays

[Rheo 🧃 Kris’ lover 🍎 @rednby]

notice how she Keeps going w gentle eyes despite the waves trying to Stop Her. a lot to Learn here.

[@grnte @grnte]

& what a privilege it is to be busy with the life you once imagined.

[⿻ th͟r͟o͟ugh the ͟p͟ane @thewindowwithin]

( they managed to their feet in that time; graciously accepting the towel and wiping their own face. )

⠀⠀*thank you. do, ah… do you happen to have.. an ice pack, or something, too?

[THE 𝘕𝘈𝘜𝘛 IN 𝘈𝘚𝘛𝘙𝘖𝘕𝘈𝘜𝘛 .ᐟ @SH0ULDNTBEHERE]

yeah, yeah uh.. let me go get one, real fast.

(he's off, and back just as fast with a towel.)

[⿻ th͟r͟o͟ugh the ͟p͟ane @thewindowwithin]

sssomething like that,
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀( deep breath )

help me up?

[𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐒𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐄𝐂𝐑𝐎𝐖 𝐏𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐂𝐄 @DANCEDlNLIFE]

( he hasn't opened his eyes. he can't even notice the blood. )

i'm okay. are you?

[⿻ th͟r͟o͟ugh the ͟p͟ane @thewindowwithin]

⠀⠀⠀( mary knows better than to start this argument up again. )

. . . fine. okay.

[𝐟𝐮𝐧𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐥 𝐠𝐨𝐝𝐝𝐞𝐬𝐬 . @amorymortem]

you shouldn't even be going through this shit in the first place-...! ( breathes in. breathes out. xena wants to scream, cry too, very loudly. but that wouldn't help mary. )

I'm taking you *and I'm waiting for you outside. I'm not discussing it.

[@grnte @grnte]

nobody is coming to save you & nobody is obligated to, no one owes you that. you owe it to yourself.

[⿻ th͟r͟o͟ugh the ͟p͟ane @thewindowwithin]

@amorymortem oh! okay. i’ll be back soon. please do not try to get up.

[⿻ th͟r͟o͟ugh the ͟p͟ane @thewindowwithin]

@consecratist #҉𝐕⠀⠀HELLOOOO ITS SO GOOD TO SEE YOU

[⿻ th͟r͟o͟ugh the ͟p͟ane @thewindowwithin]

#҉𝐕⠀⠀i dont want to re-up any necro’d posts since its been *so* long, but anyone who had a thread with me before and wants to bump it Please do ! otherwise i want to get back to writing and posting and i am so excited to do that again with everyone

[⿻ th͟r͟o͟ugh the ͟p͟ane @thewindowwithin]

@amorymortem why is there ellipses between best and woman?

[︎ ︎ ︎ ،،̲ ︎ ︎ ︎ ︎ HELL'S ︎ ︎ ︎ ꒷꒦ ︎ ︎ BELLS. @devouringink]

you stay soft, you get beaten. only natural to harden up.

[⿻ th͟r͟o͟ugh the ͟p͟ane @thewindowwithin]

@amorymortem anything for you. i’ll be back in a bit.

[⿻ th͟r͟o͟ugh the ͟p͟ane @thewindowwithin]

⠀⠀—— that answer, and slump down more on the couch. )

[⿻ th͟r͟o͟ugh the ͟p͟ane @thewindowwithin]

it’s— it wasn’t *intentional. they lost the… ( their brow furrows, pinching their nose bridge. headache. ) .. i can’t even bother with the technical terms right now. it’s a maze in there.

⠀⠀( she had spent days *in there being furious, and once she was out of survival —

[𝐟𝐮𝐧𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐥 𝐠𝐨𝐝𝐝𝐞𝐬𝐬 . @amorymortem]

you've been there for too long and it shows. ( xena wasn't about to create a fear of going on a trip for a festival now. but she feels a hint of regret for not taking mary with her, perhaps this injury could've been prevented. )

I'm sorry. ( she's visibly upset, immediately +

[⿻ th͟r͟o͟ugh the ͟p͟ane @thewindowwithin]

⠀⠀—— mode in full, she’d probably be furious again; but she didn’t have the energy for it now. )

… i don’t have medical records from this decade. it wouldn’t fly. my only option is to let the company medical unit take care of it. ( they know xena isn’t going to like ——