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[mαteo .ᐟ @thincigg]

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#edtwt i n t r o . 🍵

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[won 🧁 @crmrolls]

boy I need a trip to korea so I can head to those low calorie convenience stores

[mαteo .ᐟ @thincigg]

cant wait to be back home and starve.

[mαteo .ᐟ @thincigg]

fellow b/purgers or just people who purge in general. how long do you wait after eating to purge? im curious

[mαteo .ᐟ @thincigg]

im on vacation and saw this.. THINSPO 😩😩😩

[mαteo .ᐟ @thincigg]

@disorderlyjaded you're so fucking funny jade i love you LMAOOO

[mαteo .ᐟ @thincigg]

@chihcal AUUUGH I MISSED YOUUUUUU

[mαteo .ᐟ @thincigg]

update! i started going to therapy but it's bullshit honestly LMAO. i do not feel ready to even think of recovery. ive been in a cycle of b/p for a couple weeks. i really miss my oomfs too. honestly im coming back on here LMAO

[mαteo .ᐟ @thincigg]

to all of my sweet oomfies: i love u guys so so much, i truly find comfort in the friendships ive made here. if i havent answered your DM it's because i'm not in a good headspace to do so. i am very grateful for each and every one of you. i don't know how my futures gonna look.

[mαteo .ᐟ @thincigg]

it's lowkey so easy to hide my ed from my dad cause he wants me to lose weight, so it doesn't rlly matter if i don't eat a lot around him

[mαteo .ᐟ @thincigg]

@hif5ve_ @ibyaerii its almost like.. we can have different opinions 😭😭

[mαteo .ᐟ @thincigg]

@ibyaerii tongue technology

[mαteo .ᐟ @thincigg]

@van1lley diablo invita pues

[mαteo .ᐟ @thincigg]

i love having free will fr

[mαteo .ᐟ @thincigg]

@chihcal LOOK AT YOU GOOOO!!

[mαteo .ᐟ @thincigg]

fuck i regret this. i ate like a pig today. im having a meltdown that i don't have the energy to even have rn. i feel so dirty i need to be empty.

[mαteo .ᐟ @thincigg]

@xVenusZornx thank you so much oomfie. ur words mean the world to me. 💗💗💗

[mαteo .ᐟ @thincigg]

i'm not leaving edtwt until i address all of this with a therapist. good news is i finally told my doctors about this so i'm starting therapy. i rlly don't wanna be forced into recovery. im scared.

[mαteo .ᐟ @thincigg]

@lniren_ u have no idea how much i love you

[mαteo .ᐟ @thincigg]

to all of my sweet oomfies: i love u guys so so much, i truly find comfort in the friendships ive made here. if i havent answered your DM it's because i'm not in a good headspace to do so. i am very grateful for each and every one of you. i don't know how my futures gonna look.

[mαteo .ᐟ @thincigg]

i don't want to be forced to recover. i want to ralk about my ed, have a diagnosis and maybe, slowly, better my habits and still lose weight. i'm very anxious idk what to do.

[mαteo .ᐟ @thincigg]

i'm sure i'm hearing from the counseling center of my school tomorrow and from the dean of students. i'm not excited but what if they're right? what if losing my hair, my teeth rotting, or tearing my throat isn't worth it?