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ed / vent account

[☽ @thinlovin]

this must b one of the reasons i always get this weird feeling after i spend time w them. like i dont know if its emptiness? or smth ir just feels like i don’t belong here

[☽ @thinlovin]

we don’t like the same things, same artists, same music and in general we’re just not the same vibe but they’re my only friends. i literally don’t have any other friends besides this group so yea lol i thinks that’s one of the reasons i feel so lonely

[☽ @thinlovin]

i wasn’t scared of alcohol honestly but now every time i drink i feel every inch of my body bloated

[☽ @thinlovin]

we don’t like the same things, same artists, same music and in general we’re just not the same vibe but they’re my only friends. i literally don’t have any other friends besides this group so yea lol i thinks that’s one of the reasons i feel so lonely

[☽ @thinlovin]

i love them and all but . idk i just feel weird:-(

[☽ @thinlovin]

god im with my friends and i mean i’m having a good time but i still feel so out of place

[☽ @thinlovin]

you’re*

[☽ @thinlovin]

i hate having an ed because it literally goes against everything i believe in lol

[☽ @thinlovin]

like !!! our bodies don’t HAVE to be pretty. they just exist and it doesn’t matter if your hegemonic or not your body is always worthy of food and care so why do i have to be torturing myself trying to be skinny and pretty

[☽ @thinlovin]

i literally gained all my weight back and now my clothes don’t fit me i literally just had a full breakdown abt that so how am i supposed to deal with that trigger i think it would break me jjhsjs

[☽ @thinlovin]

i haven’t seen my friends in like 6 months and now they wanna hang out but one of them has lost a lot of weight and it triggers me so badly that i’m constantly making excuses to not show up lol

[mars the mutt 🐾 @marz_mutt]

EDNOS be like eats like a normal person and cries about it, fasts for 3 days and cries cuz im hungry, binges then cries again

[⋆ @lowkeyalbert]

Did you know 17 muscles are activated when youre crying?? Fitness is my passion

[jay plateau era @kcalbabie]

other ppl: oopsie i forgot to eat today!! haha lol ~
me, every waking second:

[☽ @thinlovin]

i miss my 2017 body so much 😔

[₊˚ zozo ₊˚. @twicekg]

sometimes i forget u dont have to be underweight to die from ur ed

[☽ @thinlovin]

i’ve got a tattoo appointment in one month and i’m really fixed on losing at least 3 kgs by then but i’ve been in a restrict/binge phase for so long that i’m scared i won’t be able to do it 😭😭

[☽ @thinlovin]

i hate exercising i’ve never liked it and probably never will and it makes me feel so bad n so guilty 😔 seeing everyone doing chl*e t*ng’s routines triggers tf out of me lol i hate my mind ✨

[☽ @thinlovin]

i wish i liked working out