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(relapsing) trying to recover but definitely not doing a good job of it - tw - 24 they/them

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If you're a minor and you follow me...please don't LMAO this is not the place for you

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My therapist thinks I have bipolar so I'm gonna get tested and I'm so fucking nervous. I'm so worried they'll tell me I'm fine and not diagnose me with anything because something is fucking wrong with me I am not normal

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I've sneezed like twice today so I'm paranoid I have covid anyways

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(she wasn't masked because she didn't know she had covid, tested negative 3 times)

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Dude somehow I didn't get covid despite spending 3 days indoors with somehow who had symptoms and wasn't masked...this booster shot is the shit

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My birthday is coming up and idk what to do for it bc Like planning something for myself seems unfun (I hate planning shit) but someone else planning it for me....gives me trauma heebie jeebies in a major way

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For Christmas my family gave me both the stomach flu AND covid 🤩 I'm so thankful 🤩 happy holidays to me

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I have some kind of evil stomach flu haha merry Christmas to me

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So like I guess it's good I gained some weight but like. Ugh. Also hate how validated my ed feels having heard that

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I forced myself to gain weight before going home for the holidays so my parents wouldn't be concerned about me but apparently they've been having secret conversations about how I'm too skinny 😅

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No one ever talks about how awkward it is going grocery shopping with someone else when you have an eating disorder lollll

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@0calbongwater This might not be what you're looking for but I teach college courses and have students that fail every semester. It really is okay. Those students have to retake the course but often do well as long they learn from their mistakes and it's all good. It's not the end of the world!

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Going for a long walk in platform boots better than ankle weights lol

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I'm a fully grown 24 up adult and I cried over GOLDFISH CRACKERS today. I need to be euthanized

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I'm literally too old to have an eating disorder this is so embarrassing

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@prettyIiIdemons Silver is underrated tbh

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@parkerlbs So true

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Proof I'm never *really* in control of my eating disorder

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I was underweight for like 3 seconds before I started binging my ass off for the last 3 days

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@fragilestardust Wtf you are gorgeous

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I need to be psychoanalyzed

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I don't at all want to break up with my partner so why do I keep having random urges to break up with my partner for absolutely no reason 💀