im sorry I wasn't born a boy and im sorry I can't be everything you need but please dont leave you're all I have
I don't have anyone else. nobody else would want me
im so unbelievably ugly, im sorry you have to be with me but I'll do better
I just wanna feel pretty again. I want them to call me pretty. please call me pretty
I want them to call me a pretty little angel just like they did when I was skinny
I know im fat and undesirable now but please
the older I get the more worthless I become
I should deadass just kill myself or at least have some freak accident so maybe I'll get a little god damn sympathy from you
they dont fucking love me they love the familiar presence
im just wasting their life away
they have a fucking fat and ugly partner. im not special anymore.
no matter how hard I try I'll never be enough
its bc im fat and fucking ugly and fucking disgusting
I can't even cut myself to feel better bc im too god damn poor to afford another razor
I should just fucking kill myself and maybe they'll finally be happy
im just holding them bacm
I have no sense of what I look like
and I dont have a scale atm so I really dont know if I lost but I haven't been eating bc im too broke to buy groceries.