madeline

drunk & disordered

[madeline @ThinPlease_]

Turned 26 today. It’s really a life long battle with yourself. I never believed the warnings I got from people around me. So here is everything I ignored: It really is “that bad”, get the help while you can, I love you, you deserve a healthy life, you deserve life.

[madeline @ThinPlease_]

It’s embarrassing that I’m 24 and battling the same eating disorder that I was diagnosed with at like 8 years old.

[madeline @ThinPlease_]

How do i explain to the girl I met in the bar bathroom that if she lays toilet paper down before she throws up it won’t splash back on her without sounding like the poster child for eating disorders. asking for myself

[madeline @ThinPlease_]

@thinningdreams Are drunk triangles still triangles

[madeline @ThinPlease_]

Going to bars with a guy friend you trust is so absolutely game changing I didn’t know I could feel this safe whilst drinking in public

[madeline @ThinPlease_]

@SickLittleDoll 💕💕💕ilysm

[madeline @ThinPlease_]

@petiteVSangel Ilysm my sweet angel queen

[madeline @ThinPlease_]

@etherealiaa I LOVE U

[madeline @ThinPlease_]

@thinningdreams It’s cute

[madeline @ThinPlease_]

@relapseghost Thank you!!

[madeline @ThinPlease_]

Also I’ve always found journaling to be really healing and I’ve been making journals for some of my friends and I’m really proud of how they turned out

[madeline @ThinPlease_]

@thinningdreams I will

[madeline @ThinPlease_]

I’m gonna get back to this I have to

[madeline @ThinPlease_]

Looking at old pictures of my worst year used to motivate me to work out and restrict but now they just make me emotionally eat and drink rum and idk how to break this cycle !

[madeline @ThinPlease_]

I honestly think the reason I gained so much so quick was bc of my shitty toxic breakup and I hate so much that a balding cheating frat boy has that power and also everything I feel like shit bc of it I just binge and it gets worse and I can’t stop 🥳

[madeline @ThinPlease_]

@thinningdreams 🥺b 🤧

[madeline @ThinPlease_]

I am here to simply say I am a dumb bitch and I hate myself that is all pls carry on

[madeline @ThinPlease_]

@thinningdreams I miss u more

[madeline @ThinPlease_]

Gonna try to lose weight in a healthy way. haven’t stepped on a scale in months but my clothes are getting tighter and I’m a bit worried about how to lose weight in a way that won’t trigger unhealthy habits

[madeline @ThinPlease_]

I want to be so much smaller

[madeline @ThinPlease_]

@petiteVSangel I love you 💕