my therapist told me this and it hit me: “healing is so hard because it is a constant battle between your inner child who is scared and just wants safety.... your inner teenager who is angry and just wants justice.... and your current self-who is tired and just wants peace."
if you knew where i was walking
to a house, not a home, all alone
CAUSE NOBODY’S THERE
where i pace in my pen
and my friends found friends who care
NO ONE SEES WHEN YOU LOSE
WHEN YOU’RE PLAYING SOLITAIRE
1. Wanting was ENOUGH
2. FOR ME, it was ENOUGH
3. To live for the HOPE OF IT ALL
4. Cancel plans JUST IN CASE you'd call
5. And say "MEET ME BEHIND THE MALL"
6. so much for SUMMER LOVE
7. and saying “US”
8. cause you WEREN’T MINE TO LOSE
when a woman keeps solving everything alone while in a relationship, her brain stops seeing her partner as safe support and starts seeing him as dead weight. Once that switch flips, attraction quietly fades no matter how much history they share.