If you really want to be supported, dont be a slave of greediness. Yes you are what you have right now but you dont have the right to mock strangers you met along the way.
Be real, everything will fall in its places!
Got no one to lean on but I got this. I know how cruel, unintuative being I am but this way, its better. Only me, myself and I got myself stuck, alone. So I will and I can moving forward!