TJL

Chicago sports victim and virtual wrestling guy.

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And if people don't like it fuck em.

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The worst is the couple things I have found genuine joy in recently I'm now apprehensive about participating in for a multitude of reasons.

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Screaming into the void instead of just sitting on my feelings has been very therapeutic.

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It's funny part of me if telling me to stop posting like this cuz it's attention seeking but a bigger part feels so much relief when I hit post.

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Maybe I trust people to easily

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A friend thinks I should be mad about something I'm not mad about. He said "just because you know and expect it to happen doesn't make it right, I would be pissed." Idk it is what it is I guess.

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He also asked how could I trust those people and again didn't have a real answer for him.

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I'm gonna take one step at a time and trip and fall along the way but I have to believe that things will get better and that I will get better. The path might not always be forward and direct but there is a path and a goal and I just have to take my time and try my best.

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Adjusting to a new normal. Brain doesn't like non linear progression. Lived my whole life one way until about 6 months ago. 3 months ago I decided to get help. I never liked help. Change is hard, getting better is hard, mental health is hard.

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Keeping all of my feelings and emotions locked away isn't healthy for me anymore which is why I'm telling into the void. I don't expect people to read any of this and I'm not looking for sympathy but just typing it out and hitting post had already cleared my head a bit.

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So I hope to see many wonderful faces in the crowd and will do my best to put on the show of a lifetime!

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In just under 7 hours Star Fight will be live for the first time. Tonight there are just under 30 entrants from all across the cosmos. I'm nervous and excited for everyone to see all the hard work and passion I put into these shows and hope everyone has a great time.

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And of course none of this would be possible with @Skysky600 and the comets to whom I am very grateful for lending themselves to this thing that I love!

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The whole Destiny 2 Marathon war is stupid "ya we want D3 so let's try and kill the game the studio is working on and updating now!" If you want D3 go play D2 and show that the player base isn't all talk.

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Oh very nice and very evil @DanhausenAD please accept my offering of $20 and uncurse the @Cubs I beg of thee