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+ take the odds, i’ll keep dreaming

[esphir ≈ @tillitaint]

since this is getting traction again, i just want to preface that the drumgate took a lot from me.
ik it's just a silly vid of us being utterly shocked, but the amount of abuse i've received over this isn't normal.
everyone was blaming us for not stopping her, saying +

[esphir ≈ @tillitaint]

my fucking face LMAO
girl i hope you were joking #clancymanchester

[esphir ≈ @tillitaint]

hayley show tonight and i can’t make it as i’m working at the venue right across 💔 i’m god’s strongest soldier

[esphir ≈ @tillitaint]

harry leaving amsterdam feels like getting dumped after 10 years together via text

[esphir ≈ @tillitaint]

oh it’s so over

[esphir ≈ @tillitaint]

harry’s amsterdam residency is over. he teased mmith. played cherry. there’s only a tiny chance i might see him again this year. linkin park played with you and will probably never play it again post rar/rip. from zero tour is almost over. cbus resale is still 3k.

[esphir ≈ @tillitaint]

there’s an actual footage of me falling to my knees during this part that will never see the light of day

[HSD Together On Tour @hsdtogethertour]

🎶 Meet Me in the Hallway 🎶 - Harry teasing the crowd on stage at Johan Cruijff Arena in Amsterdam, Netherlands, 5 June (via @louisunshinerry)

[esphir ≈ @tillitaint]

of course the last song i listened to before i left for harry’s show was also with you i feel insane

[esphir ≈ @tillitaint]

@amelophileslife i was at harry’s final amsterdam show and now i come back and everything is in flames

[esphir ≈ @tillitaint]

what the fuck do you mean linkin park played with you for the first time in a decade what the FUCK do you mean that they played MY song and i wasn’t THERE are you fucking insane

[esphir ≈ @tillitaint]

literally no one understands what this song means to me, what do you mean it’s back on again but also not really as there’s no guarantee they’ll keep in rotation because apparently god himself fucking hates me what the FUCK dudeeeeeEEEEEEE

[esphir ≈ @tillitaint]

i need to be shot. like i genuinely need to be put down. i don’t know how to handle them playing THE song again. holy shit. holy fucking shit what the fuck.

[Linkin Park Live @LPLive]

The moment With You returned for the first time in 12 years

[esphir ≈ @tillitaint]

at least 2 people from my past whom i considered friends (and with whom i haven’t spoken in months) have unfollowed me recently and the only thing i posted was harry’s residency (they’re also harry fans).
idk if it’s jealousy or what but crazy to see

[esphir ≈ @tillitaint]

@tylerrsversion josh can’t fight us all

[em ⊬ ••x•• festivals+cbus @blurryfender]

happy dcfc album day

[esphir ≈ @tillitaint]

okay fun’s over

[esphir ≈ @tillitaint]

night 9: BEAUTIFUL fine line tonight. a few tears of pure JOY were shed but it was good. live is so many things. fine line forever.

[esphir ≈ @tillitaint]

night 8: apparently fully blacked out (i’m sober) on fine line cus i don’t remember her at all but did a full 180 and sobbed to the point of a panic attack during CARLA’S song where i also half wept through aperture which was just comical

[esphir ≈ @tillitaint]

night 8: apparently fully blacked out (i’m sober) on fine line cus i don’t remember her at all but did a full 180 and sobbed to the point of a panic attack during CARLA’S song where i also half wept through aperture which was just comical

[esphir ≈ @tillitaint]

night 7: smiled a bit through fine line. watched the crowd. was beautiful. started tearing up but didn’t cry!!

[esphir ≈ @tillitaint]

night 7: smiled a bit through fine line. watched the crowd. was beautiful. started tearing up but didn’t cry!!

[esphir ≈ @tillitaint]

night 6: wanted to claw my eyes out and throw myself off my seat but didn’t cry!!!!!!

[esphir ≈ @tillitaint]

night 6: wanted to claw my eyes out and throw myself off my seat but didn’t cry!!!!!!

[esphir ≈ @tillitaint]

night 5: DIDN’T CRY!!!!!! i did itttttttt

[esphir ≈ @tillitaint]

no one gets season 2 weight loss like harry and i do i’m not even sorry
watching ppl use it as their “pee break” song for the whole residency has just been insane to witness y’all do NOT deserve her

[esphir ≈ @tillitaint]

pilot mention but at what cost

[HSD Together On Tour @hsdtogethertour]

“Help me find my crush, he’s here! No pilot, by the way.’ You’re cabin crew? I’m kidding. There’s a person you like and he’s here! Ooh. What’s his name? His name’s Harry. Hang on a minute!” - Harry on stage at Johan Cruijff Arena, 4 June (via @finelineshe)