soleil / mikey

18yo loserboything | shedtwt & plural

[soleil / mikey @tilllimia]

i keep texting him as if he'll ever come back. it's wishful thinking. we'll be alone forever. -homura

[soleil / mikey @tilllimia]

@drainallmyblood it's not a choice. paraphilias are unwanted. they are disorders.

[soleil / mikey @tilllimia]

people need to educate themselves more about paraphilias. paraphilias do not mean someone is inherently bad. ACTING UPON THEM is what makes them bad.

[soleil / mikey @tilllimia]

nothing feels worth living for. i have a job. i should be happy. without him i'm nothing, though. he was my everything. my better half. the reason i kept living. without him, what's the point of continuing on?

[soleil / mikey @tilllimia]

i love you all, but i can't handle this any longer. i'm going to make the preparations and do it at the start of february. i have nothing left to try for. nothing left to live for. i have nothing.

[soleil / mikey @tilllimia]

i'm going to kill myself soon.

[soleil / mikey @tilllimia]

i got my house of wolves tee. i'm not even all that happy. i just feel empty.

[soleil / mikey @tilllimia]

im waiting and waiting for someone who will never come back. i'm hopeless. i give up.

[soleil / mikey @tilllimia]

i miss him. i miss him so bad it hurts. we were going to build a life together. we had something special. how could he throw it all away? why won't he come back to me?

[soleil / mikey @tilllimia]

i miss him so badly. how could he move on so fast. why didn't he love me. why wasn't i good enough. why am i never enough.

[soleil / mikey @tilllimia]

i just want him back. i'd do anything to get him back. did he never love me?

[soleil / mikey @tilllimia]

everything hurts. i'm waiting for him to come back. i'm just like a dog. stupidly loyal. always waiting. always waiting. waiting until i die. still waiting even in death.

[soleil / mikey @tilllimia]

i just want to die.

[frnkiero bot @frnkiero_lyr]

I know I should run, (And I know I should run, I know I should run)
But I just keep running back. (And I know I should run, I know I should...)

[soleil / mikey @tilllimia]

he was cheating on me yet i'm begging for him to come back. he said he "needs time". i'm giving him time. god it fucking hurts. it hurts so bad.

[soleil / mikey @tilllimia]

im begging and pleading for him to come back. oh my fucking god he's all i needed and all i wanted i spent so much money on him i flew on a plane to meet him i did everything with him and for him and he just leaves me like that

[soleil / mikey @tilllimia]

hhe was xheaitng on me he was fucking cheating on me the whole fuckniging time

[soleil / mikey @tilllimia]

he'll miss me when i'm fucking dead.

[soleil / mikey @tilllimia]

he lied to us. he said he would give us another chance but his bio says otherwise. he has his "friend's" initial in a heart. he's dating them now. he ditched us and immediately started dating them. how could i have been so pathetic as to not realize that's what he was doing.