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Connecting my dots

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Please @TVRINasional halftime show jgn di cut kayak tadi pas ada yg perform di lapangan. Kapan lg ada halftime show di Piala Dunia. So please jgn di cut!

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All this time I've always been worried how every member of my family is getting on. Now? I just don't give a s***t! I've been doing this for far too long. I've had enough.

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Nobody would put an effort for me, so why should I do the same thing for them?
😢😢😢

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I've made a promise to myself that I will put myself first instead anyone else! Call me selfish, but I genuinely think I deserve it!

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Do you remember when you joined Twitter? I do! #MyTwitterAnniversary13

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What IS wrong with me?

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I can't even watch a film alone at the cinema without thinking about what's the next lesson plan that I should prepare. I used to enjoy watching films alone. But not anymore.😭😭😭

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I spent my time every day at home, maybe that's why I felt a bit uneasy when I'm leaving home. I'm afraid something bad might happen to me.

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Things aren't the same since I got covid. I easily get worried and way more sensitive and emotional. Maybe it's the thing they called anxiety attack. I don't know.

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Going alone everywhere used to be a fun thing to do for me, but not now. So many things going on in head.

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There was a point when I thought I was going to collapse. 'No, not now! Please don't!' I said to myself. Breathing sometimes heavy and catching breath isn't easy. Do I have a panic attack? On what?

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There I was, sitting at a table, looking outside the window, with my mind elsewhere just watching the float. It was odd. I felt like something bad might happen. I could hear my heart beat and my breath.

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So I arrived at Starbucks, order my favourite drink and I said my name. The batista didn't seem to catch what I said so I said my name again. It felt strange. It's like I had to begin to interact again with people again.?Somehow I felt a little uneasy.

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I've never felt like that before. There's always something to do back then when I was in a mall. It was really strange. I always have plans. But today, I just lost.

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So I went to the nearest Starbucks, which is in BIP. I took a walk there since it wasn't so far. While I was walking there, I kept thinking 'What should I do after having coffee? Should I go home or do another groceries?'

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I went to Riau Junction to get some mayonnaise, arirang noodles and a couple of snacks. Then after that I decided to go to Starbucks coz today's is tumbler day.

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I had a day off today. So I decided to do my groceries. I have been waiting for this day, coz I don't usually get a day-off quite easily.

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Hareudang teu sih?
Is it me or everybody else feel the same?

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@deasichucky InsyaAllah ya BuDes… asa loba kahayang pisaaaan 😅😅😅

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Ya Allah yang Maha Baik. Aku kepingin the latest Macbook air space grey. Pinginnya dikasih, gak mau beli. 🙏🏻