dawn ☼

my disordered diary ~ ☼ edtwt ☼ priv @dawnsdespair ☼ i don’t suffer from bed, it suffers from me!!!!

[dawn ☼ @tinyghostcals]

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hi i’m dawn !
22 ✩ australian ✩ they/them
164cm ✩ hw: 98kg ✩ cw: in bio
☼ ifb 18+ ☼

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[dawn ☼ @tinyghostcals]

@cemeteryfoxx omg it looks so good happy birthday!!!

[dawn ☼ @tinyghostcals]

i never do anything by myself i just think what’s the point. but i made myself a pizza at work with all my fav toppings and im watching state of origin on the big tv like i deserve dinner and to watch the things i like idk why i deprive myself

[dawn ☼ @tinyghostcals]

im not gonna lie i wanna talk to her again i wanna tell her how he turned out i wanna drink and smoke on call with her again i wanna talk to someone who gets it im so alone

[dawn ☼ @tinyghostcals]

ugh i wish i wasn’t mentally ill like girl just get up im literally that bird in the loose handcuffs what am i doinngggggg

[dawn ☼ @tinyghostcals]

tried to sweeten me up with a date to this one place but he’s taken so long at the shops we have missed the chance to go lmao

[dawn ☼ @tinyghostcals]

I’m gonna set a date deadass which is a testament to my cowardese cause i would rather kill myself than just idk leave . (Easier said than done both of those things smh

[dawn ☼ @tinyghostcals]

nothing like being drunk and high and cleaning off moulding food off the ground cause your bf flew into a regal over you pointing out he’d take the bin out days ago so his retaliation is to crack open the bin and pour to flush over the floor for yours truely . thanks boyfie 💕

[dawn ☼ @tinyghostcals]

drinking was a mistake I’m off my game and now when he’s yelling and cursing at me I’m making no sense defence is 0 so I’m getting obligated to. Ref do something !!!!

[dawn ☼ @tinyghostcals]

mama found the brandy if I’m gonna be getting abused let me be cross faded ahhhh

[dawn ☼ @tinyghostcals]

i deal with the craziest shit and then just go to work. clean and cook like normal. He said it’s all my good for. Yelled at me at midnight. Tipped the Bin out and said. Clean it. It’s all youre good for. And because I’m weak . Coward. Trapped. I’m cleaning it

[dawn ☼ @tinyghostcals]

i wish i was loveable mb someone normal someone who doesn’t want to punish me and hurt me . why do people want to hurt me all the time like im sorry please tell me what im doing wrong so i can fix it and make it stop

[dawn ☼ @tinyghostcals]

miserable miserable miserable

[dawn ☼ @tinyghostcals]

im an idiot

[dawn ☼ @tinyghostcals]

i just feel so depressed he keeps asking for me back like bro I’m not a break upper like ts is so hard i wanna give in so bad but it’s not the right thing to do. Idk. I am becoming more and more unsure.

[dawn ☼ @tinyghostcals]

it’s so hard to let go. we met up this morning and both cried. he asked me to stay. but how can i? i said i have to go im moving to the city im just going. i have to. i know its stupid and its dumb . but i hope one day we can be together again

[dawn ☼ @tinyghostcals]

had like four hours sleep. feel so tired still but unable to go back to bed

[dawn ☼ @tinyghostcals]

we broke up. family is here to support me. cat is coming with me. im gonna be okay. im gonna find me again

[dawn ☼ @tinyghostcals]

failed my driving test . had a cry in the tmr. ughhh 22 years old. just end me

[dawn ☼ @tinyghostcals]

like this is nuts I’m on my break hands shaking because he’s threatening to kick me out again and still cursing me in messages over what????? i genuinely have no clue what ive even done wrong . have to go be happy customer service with lump in my throat

[dawn ☼ @tinyghostcals]

going to work with a psycho bipolar bf is not for the work he fights with me before during and after work bro im so tired having to pretend shit is normal and okay but who’s gonna help me out of this where would I go