@chaccocals PLSSSS AND WE HAVE TO LIVE LIKE THIS FOR THE REST OF OUR LIVES ๐ how will i save money and invest & be rich gworl iโm gonna just have to die
went to the gym and the coach said bodyweight exercises are more efficient & important than using machines, trying reformers pilates when ppl say mat pilates is more difficult and gives more results OKAY BUT IโM GETTING SO BORED AT HOME how will i genuinely keep exercising
@chaccocals YES I THINK IM GONNA DO THAT honestly i shouldโve just subscribed to active & fit which is like class pass but for gyms UNFORTUNATELY IโM STUPID HHHHHHH
fucking hate how i need a 1-2 hr nap everytime i eat AND still do even after adderall i thought it was just the female adhd thing where u get easily drained after stupid tasks like yeah i can stay awake now but if i donโt sleep i wonโt digest & canโt keep anything down
@chaccocals starting to understand what adhd tax means now. have to spend and do so much shit just to have railings to wrangle me back into being consistent with goals that normal ppl Do Not Need To Do
@chaccocals i wanna buy a pilates membership so bad now after i went to a class today LOL but iโm gonna shop around for diff studios first before i settle on one (also bc i cannot afford that with my 18 month LOCKED IN GYM CONTRACT ๐น๐ซต๐ผ)
but i need to stop being mad bc if i dont use my money on pilates classes and personal trainer i'll just end up spending it on degenerate shit like video games & mobile gacha imagine being broke AND fat AND ugly its okay i'll be beautiful with no money
i threw out hundreds of dollars knowing i can do a free workout at home and get more results ikyfl !!!!!! but my brain hates me and i will lose focus and go do some other stupid activity or procrastinate so i guess goodbye my bank iโm showing up to class.
went to reformers pilates today !!! thereโs a different studio right next to it called so1idc0re & i think iโm gonna take an intro class on wednesday if work doesnโt beat the shit out of me but itโs pilates on crack i hope i dont die <3
no more breakfast and lunch for me if i wanna be a productive functioning human in the daytime i fear i am only allowed to eat after 8 PM from now on when i no longer have to do anything. it is just energy drink & water for me throughout the day
but i HAVE to keep it down i have severe emetophobia so i guess no more fucking daytime eating bc i had to leave work early the other day after feeling so sick i couldnโt stand up anymore & then missed all of today when i was supposed to go to the mall with ppl all bc LUNCH
@chaccocals MENTAL ILLNESS INNIT ๐คฉ๐คฉ but like after experiencing this i realize . in adulthood when u start renting an apartment and stuff itโs all the same and if u leave early u pay half the remaining fees or a penalty of a few hundred dollars DEPENDING ON WHICH COSTS MORE
my life is actually out of control all i do is work 10-11 hrs a day and go home and sleep. you fucking piece of shit DO SOMETHING ELSE FOR ONCE !! find a hobby get a personality
@chaccocals I NEVER WANNA WORK EVER AGAIN โฆโฆ unfortunately i have gotten locked into a year long gym contract so i gotta keep working until i can afford to pay it all then perhaps never work there ever again