One of my other Dads has cancer and I want him to be just as proud.
I want to leave but I have to go. I worked so damn hard to find a home for me my kids and family. So I don’t have to ever go.
So my elders have somewhere to go and be free. How ever they become sick or dementia. I have all the resources of there memories here right with me where I can replay and show.
Because it is their foundations as chosen stars of David.
Stop confusing someone’s silence with an inability to defend themselves. Some people have enough receipts to end the conversation; they just don’t find the circus worth attending.
He wouldn’t have given those girls anything.
His entire legacy and history will be erased.
He told them to find me. And give me everything. Knowing I will take care of them for looking after him.
Every time I show up these women put their heads down and they say nothing.
Mean while trying to kill me or asylum me so his brothers won’t find out the truth.
He doesn’t trust these whores. How often does he take a woman seriously? How long does he watch them? Which team does he send to build you up? How often does he show up? Who does he know that knows you? Did they take care of you like they were told to?
Yet yall stole from me though right.
I was the piece shit loved the most right?
I was the whore right?
I was the one who didn’t deserve anything while we were present with each other, he told you all a message for me.
Yet I was the one he chose to be his wife that you all were sent to look for. Right.
So where are yall?
where is he?
Call the spade the spade.
No one knew who I was until my Dad re introduced me.
Some people he didn’tttttttt, I will not hold any one accountable.
Y’all didn’t know me, didn’t notice. Until it hit you like a ghost.
It’s like holding my fiancé accountable for being Grandpa Bailey nephew but he was in stupid ass foster care and group homes most of his life.
So he doesn’t know much about our family. 🥹😭
My dad (pop) doesn’t either only Uncle Smoke. Then his street name Pop Smoke, yet they sold it to Pop Smoke. He’s upset about that. He wants everything, his life once was.
He wants who his father and uncles are.
He wants to protect that.
He wants to put his family in position so they can be untouched and abundant. He doesn’t care what he has.
He knows now who and whom he is.
And he attains the values of our family legacy.
But according to one of our other Uncles on the Panamanian side just because you my brothers kids don’t mean we family.
But yeah we are related, with the same DNA. Don’t listen to that. Lol
Honestly most of us feel like cousins and very much relatable.
Forgive us for not knowing better
🤭🫣🥶
When I say nothing, I will not have a pizza party for my granny.
She showed me everything what she wants, where she wants it. The fried chicken in that bodega. Was her sign. And the house and assets my other grandpa left her. A sign!
Her properties in VA her dad left her.
Her mom’s Native American roots.
Her mother is a Native American Indian, y’all.
My granny knows what to do in with
The ocean and a full moon.
She has been an orphan since she was 10 years old.
Do not ever make her feel like she is alone. Do not make her feel like she has no one to speak to. Do not make us feel like we don’t have a connection with her.
This is a frightening feeling. No one answered when I called. I have ptsd from grandpa passing in there.
I feel like as per usual he doesn’t want me there spiritually. I can be everywhere else in the building or neighborhood.
I feel spiritually rejected from going in there. Why tho? Maybe I want my privacy.
I don’t want to be around trolls or anyone exploiting me. Or going behind my back mistreating me and talking bad about me for no reason.
Blocking everyone.
Don’t fawking call me and don’t cry if something happens to me.
It is my Aunts husband and her kids fault.
Y’all are a hot mess either way with grandma.
My dad and uncles as well!
If I get raped again or almost lose my life to some freak accident, being jumped, stabbed or a stray bullet. Or some nigga and his bish kidnap me to prison or an asylum.
I hope those who love and give a damn bout me and my children find yall abd burn you all to the mferin’ dust!
I promise you your wives will regret the day they married yall stupid ass’ and your daughters are going to wish they were never fawking born.
Hence why I haven’t been back here in 3 years. Hence why it took me 5 years to fathom the fucking thought of speaking to you all ever again.
How yall the victim when all you’ve done was take from me? Try to fawk me over while you give some loser ass mfer an opportunity to better than the greatness yall never give me a chance at. You’re always stressing me. Causing some pity ass mferin’ story as to why I can’t get normal fawking help. While you all tell your stupid ass trolls to bother me at the fawking shelter.
Fawking idiots. So where the fawk am I going to feel safe and protected at?
Especially with my children?
This idiot of a stray been doing this to him towards me before I had children bruh!
How could you just walk past your own cousin and just be unkind out of no where?
So I guess if my granny passes away we will have nothing.
Hunh Whitheads????
Yall just gone act like strangers towards. Like I did something wrong? Like I owe yall something? Y’all can’t be normal towards me? WHY IS THAT?
why is that little cousin being mean to me or quiet and stand offish?
What is up with you alls behaviors toward me? Y’all look crazy, sneaky, and thoughtless. Do you understand it’s fawking dangerous? It’s cool to treat me how Uncle Las do? Because he’s an a believable angel right? So I never mattered because I’m echo daughter from Florida right. And he could just lie on me and scare me out of state. Right?
Y’all be held up on WORDS, hear me out, how did I ever act with yall?
So wtf is you fighting my mother’s one child for?
You fawking idiots!
Get the fawk out!
I spent a long time thinking about this. And I want these people OUT of my grandmothers house.
Like LEAVE! I will take care of her, my brother will take care of her.
I am sick of you all disgusting stifling
pity fawking nasty ass attitude draining ugly behind souls stealing energy with your lame ass’ non existent control.
This goes for my mother mother grand kids too.
I can’t stand none of you bishes either and the way you treated me.
Every nigga from my hood
Got a degree, career, hustle, trust fund.
Every woman in our circle successful, paid, and slayed!
I don’t care what yall got going on.
My mommy said Take care of your cousins.
My daddy said stay humble.
How you treat people matters not what you have.
That is what my parents taught me as lessons separately.
The preparation of my humility for humanities through his/her story.
Not
It’s fortunate my new mama in law was my Aunty at some point in my
Life.
You think I’m just going to let yall grieve alone Queen.
I love you and your family so much.
Your son is my whole heart. Your nephew is my bestie (can I break the silence, yall know I have separation anxiety), your cousin is my god dad.
Is that yall or not?
For my memory purposes.
I know that was my future boyfriend during the pandemic. I was so mad and so lost and drugged(strange weed, even stranger girl) and yall nephews didn’t know.
I just don’t remember that last weekend. I remember my exit 😭 and how terrified I felt.
What happened with you all and Auntie Annie?
Y’all used to be Moms best friends. Then she must of got depressed that yall disappeared.
I know your voices and your spirit from our basement.
Until Uncle T Got Uncle Rocky in trouble with Mama because of weed in our basement. Then some fuckery made all of us clear out and move away from midwood.
That is why you were separated from you children. And I don’t want you and Aunty Anne ever separated from me and mommy ever again!
Mumma is cold and strict. But I know my Mommy’s friends meant a lot to her.
Like Aunty Tracy and Aunty Rosalee.
She used to just lay on the damn couch with no one to talk to. No one to hang with. She shut down and she just worked so hard. And at her wedding, she had a sense of pain, a sense of there was other parts of her she wants to embrace in her memory like there is a part of her life that was missing. A story she never told.
Like the
Soccer field days, knowing yall gals don’t even play soccer.
And what were yall was doing back in the day at the Win Gate Park?
Hmm 🥹 😭 😇
It’s giving chin up Momty, & Unc you just gained another angel, may your portals open and the blessings arrive.
May your legacy as a
Prince
Princess be felt,
your
Loyalty to your
Royalty be heard
and
your
Beauty be seen.
Income from a back ground from really awesome Mom and Dads.
The only bad thing about my childhood was my attitude and combativeness with my mommy shutting down while no one noticed how much missed her friends. And she only trusted me as her one friend after yall left her! Only thing bad about my childhood is NOTHING lol
Aunty Chris and her hubs could’ve adopted yall kids if you all weren’t so scared.
You all only had each other, how can you make an agreement to separate and never talk to each other again as best friends when your children live in the same city.
Did y’all ever think we will never find each other again??
Anywho’s when mom changed her life she took us to Botanical gardens, libraries, museums, music stores, park, arcades, circus, Disney on ice, concerts, plays, the movies.
She gave me a normal life no different than the dreams y’all had as teens.
Y’all are so prestigious.
My uncle and his uncles were so close growing up.
That hurts the bruises in my brain.
No one remembered me, so what happened as a baby, happened again to me Momty. Someone tried to do it to my daughters.
🥹 I am stuck and afraid. I didn’t know what happened when I was a baby. Someone keeps doing it again and they show and tell me. While they bother and troll my daughters.
I don’t know anything, I’m just a writer.
Give me back my afties, titty bars, and performance venues.
I’m not kidding, I’m not sharing anything before I actually know what I have and what was left.
And I know you feel the same way Momty. I know you’re wondering what gifts were waiting, I mean taking from you, so I’m going to take it all back for you Aunties!
Your ex man step kid ah troll. Get them away from us.
Do you know how expensive it is to keep buying shit over and over because these immature idiots doesn’t respect hard work or money?
Do you?
Do you all inner stand how fawked up and expensive it fawking is to keep re buying sh*t because these mother fuckers do not value ANYTHING?
Or the fact that I am spending my money on things I keep being disrespected for and can’t fawking enjoy.
Always asking me for sh*t while going against my fawking agreement yo!
Fawk!
And I am not sorry.
It is my sealed money, children, and records last time I checked. I don’t give a damn how mfers feel when they knew they were never getting any in the first place. Dead or alive nigga! The damages done to my body cost no matter who fawking fault.
So STFU, stop involving me and my children in your stupid ass ransom.
They robbed it all from me, with no concerns of the emergency for my housing or children.
I am scared of them. I promise I will never speak to those two idiots ever again once I get me and my babies items.
All he did was set me up again.
ever since I came back and around and let him in my life. Everyone started being mean and shading me.
That shit used to come at me blind sided and I would never know what I did wrong.
Then behaves like this. Leaving me to sleep in my car, having to find spots in neighborhood to sleep, the basements, in the stairway, with permission.
Like the you all would watch me go through this with both my Dad and Uncle while they act like they’re the victim.
Yet I always paid and upheld my agreement.
He kept taking fawking advantage
Like acting like I was his slave.
Like I owed him a life that I never got to live yet.
Every time he gets paid or a blessing he never asks me so much if I want to have lunch. Or simply say thank you!
If that was my friend, I’d say fuck the parents you came from cuz you don’t treat even know how to treat people.
Especially when you know your family member has been a rape victim multiple times.
Yeah dad that is what your little brother has been doing to me.
What the fuck are y’all losers trying to figure out now?
And honestly your nieces not too far behind with that crazy scary ass fawking mentality.
That sh*t is evil
And hateful.
I am not rich and neither is my mom’s side of the family.
Who in they sane mind would say that?
Y’all have more than them and you’re American.
You fawking losers !!!
I get tight and want to cancel every blood clot ting!
I don’t give a fawk about ah party or none of this fake sh*t.
I want to go where my items that I own are.
Where my important documents are.
You stupid fawking kidnapping broken mentality a** creeps!!!
And every fawking thing better be fawking there and untouched.
Like you idiots better not go through my sh*t either.
Dear this dumb bish to steal any of my sh*t. Also, like do not even eat my candy or food without replacing it.
Lucky I ain’t got no clips for you to smoke either!
Why do I have to starve and be homeless so this fat whore can thrive to no where but up under neath another one of his friends?
No not yall friends HIS friends!!!
I press chargers hoe and I send bishes to psych, you sh*tty freak!
I don’t give a damn if it’s my own damn children or Sonnie. Stop bothering me!
Y’all bishes finna get cut, shot, or serve a long time in prison!
In legal states this sh*t wouldn’t even get you further past the door not even fake fawking my man roommate can help you hoe!
Because first off how you know he my man?
how you know his roommate/friend/family?
how the hell you got in here to have access to me like that?
It’s like the days I used to catch a home girl sneaking out my man roommates room. I seen’t you, and I heard your raggedy a** car, pull up, then you left.
And bish you didn’t ask if I wanted a ride back home!
Like b*tch your busted. Why are you over here fawking with this
Tom, Dick, and Harry a** nigga knowing he got a girlfriend or he’s not your type.
Tell that agency to Stop over riding me
Judge Clarke, then having meetings with you and lying on me!
Women aggravate me, when they want what they cannot have.
These losers have NO control over me!
When they dead, don’t nobody fawking look my way.
I am going to PRAY to god he don’t strike yall bishes for bothering me and my man.
Old nigga or new.
That isn’t any of yall business.
Neither who tf I have kids with!
I don’t give a damn what shade you is at this point.
I promise this girl finna get my five fingers across her fawking face if I catch em’
They better run, I promise. I actually like him and myself even more.
Lol
I will find her, her baby daddy will find her.
We will deal with her for playing with me and this fake a** entitlement!!!
Idgaf what you’re going through. Why tf are you around my man? You’re too close. And why is my goofy a** cousin letting yo tricky a** around us to annoy me!
You did it to us before 🥹
If I give up. That is it. I will never come back here. Stop the embarrassment.
Yall gave me stage freight.
And it sounds like a big crowd outside.
Ion got no trees for my ptsd and anxiety or support animal with me.
And where is the sky?
That is my ptsd bestie.
We yell at each other to get through our trauma lol
I have separation anxiety from my friendssss and uncle.
My imaginary man and kids are busy.
Y’all ain’t ask me though, idk where this man is. 🥹
Your wife sure does miss you!
Dealing w the wrong person can bring you SO MANY stalkers. Their friends, their exes, their family members. You got ppl watching your every move bc you made the mistake of connecting w a narc.
Dear Brothers,
Your girlfriends need to leave me alone.
They are ruining my relationships.
*me yesterday in the cold rain
now yall see why I have an attitude sometimes.
Do y’all see or hear me bothering people? Or these stupid little mean fawkers, I stay out their way!
Yet they’re always so mean to me as the youngest.
Always making me feel unwelcome.
I try not to dislike them for my brothers and sisters sake but they are disgusting to me.
I never treated them like that, none of my siblings.
These assholes act like I owe them something.
I do not owe you youngins NOTHING and yall have no respect for me and it shows.
I should let yall rot in hell and sleep on the god damn streets for what yall keep fawking doing to me when she passes.
The calls, the visits, you all are fawking devastating!
Fawk yall!