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dum spiro, spero ⋆˚𔓘 ˖ ࿔*

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i hate this phase, i hate this place.

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i think it's okay to let that hope and dreams go.

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in some days he would fall asleep earlier than me, cant help but to stare and study his features no matter how many times i memorized it already. this one is a good person inside and out, and he's choosing me everyday. i love mi 🥐.

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anyways i'm loving my life so far. feels good to have a solid rock and the willingness to face this reality with someone whose love is bigger than what i could offer.

it may get gloomy some days but i'll forever know that i am wanted and secured here. (♡)

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surprisingly, may twitter pa pala haha

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i look back a lot here on twitter. i can really attest na women are all reciprocators, part of me was dead because lost what was once initiated.

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i somehow miss your writings here in twitter @JcManuzon they're like love letters for me and a soul to know you hmm

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at some point kapag hindi ka na-aappreciate enough you tend to lose that side of you din.

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kapagod kaloka

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"mabuhay tayo ng payapa" as my sign off email. 😆🤚🏻

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narealize ko haha na kaya ka niya maging friends after what happened between us pero ako hindi kasi hindi niya matanggap na i had someone 🤣

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i just want to rant all of this. i have so much more. i'm at peace with my truths, and my truths are my brigade.

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i'm a believer, but i fear no God. why would i fear the Lord? i pray for repentance with all my might and for these people to shed them light. kaya don't come for me and my faith, mga utak niyo din eh. it's stronger than any other things you can compare.

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it's so sad that i will never get to see my little sibling grow but it's more saddening if my little sibling would know one day that their ate killed herself. right? i don't want that trauma for them.

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i'm eldest but fuck all of your expectations of me. hindi ako ang magtutuloy ng nasirang niyong pangarap. i do not wish my "family" but specifically allah i hope karma visits you well.

try coming up clean, alam mo sa sarili mo what you did. oh, great manipulator ka nga pala.

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"hanggang dyan ka nalang" those are her words resonating, when the funny thing is she had nothing while i'm paving my pathways to start.

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good for her that life went easy for her. she never had to starve and crawl herself to college and bargain to your relatives para lang sa pamasahe. the fact na when i had a job i'm the one to give her pamasahe makapasok lang siya. never hear anything such as sorry and thank you.

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parehong pareho ng ugali ng nanay ko. mali na nga ayaw pa patalo. 🥴 i kept on apologizing for things na dapat winowork on niya sa sarili niya, i feel sorry for her that she's miserable like that. that she has to prove her worth by shadowing on what i achieved so far in life.

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oh uh and shoot. man, the way she's bragging na naka-iphone siya 😆 never nga nagambag sa bahay yan lmao. issue went on dahil sa aquaflask?!? aquaflask ko na nga lang ninakaw pa, after sirain pinto ng kwarto ko kinuha pa mga gamit ko ng walang paalam. swear on god i asked nicely.

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now i'm leaving this hell of a household i don't even belong. i'm so fvcking tired dying to live for y'all.

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napakalala ng mentality ni alliah hahaha now make sense why napakadali sa kanya magphysical abuse dahil lesbian pala siya, tapos pinipilit niya na insecure ako sa kanya? bale pati plano namin mag-elyu ever since last 2 years ago pa, issue niya HAHAHAHHA kesyo insecure daw lmao

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social climber. doesn't know how to accept mistakes 🫡 tumanda na siyang ganyan. two faced bitch din. so i would always say pls mag-ingat kasi super pakitang tao. she would attack me in all the absurdity and insecurities she have sa katawan niya. ikamamatay niya ata yan.