guys this is an edtwt acc thats active! this is not a second acc! i post abt my ed and mental struggles in general so if u dont wanna see that only follow my main @c0lumb1naa
@hy5980643324611@PH0ENIXOXO LMAO my thigh gap is bigger than his.. cuz i actually have one when pushing ankles together and standing normally ๐๐ men like that r seriously so annoying tho
oh how the summer makes me genuinely suicidal i would rather be freezing to death, i hate sweating and smelling and EW I FUCKING HATE THE SUMMER SO MUCH IRS THE WORST SEASON OUT OF ALL OF THEM fall is the best
i also HATE THIS. I DONT WANNA B0RR0W I FEEL SO EMBARRASSED ASHAMED AND GUILTY. IK THEYRE MULTIBILLION DOLLAR BUSINESSES BUT THAT DOESNT MAKE THE GUILT ANY BETTER? I HATE BEING THIS WAY BUT I DEADASS CANT AFFORD FUCKING FOOD
i also HATE THIS. I DONT WANNA B0RR0W I FEEL SO EMBARRASSED ASHAMED AND GUILTY. IK THEYRE MULTIBILLION DOLLAR BUSINESSES BUT THAT DOESNT MAKE THE GUILT ANY BETTER? I HATE BEING THIS WAY BUT I DEADASS CANT AFFORD FUCKING FOOD
wanted to cry, i also wanted to get some of my safe foods (i technically did, i got 4 boxes of protein bars.. bc i b0rro3d them) AND I CANT EVEN AFFORD BOTH. food and drinks are so unaffordable wtf this is why i b0rrow fuck ur dumbass prices yk damn well its not worth that much
if i wanna choose to starve myself i get to but ur fuckass prices being too high causing me to stave isnt gonna happen buddy ๐ either lower the prices or keep losing money
i have all 3 tik batteries (i had to get a new one aka the one in the middle, tik20 bc my tik30 broke and my tik10 doesnt let me get the very very bottom of the cart)
this also isnt js abt me, this goes for my friend and oomfs who has been traumatized from forced hospitalization. its absolutely disgusting and all they do is torture u mentally bc THEY want u to be a "healthy weight" they dont give a flying fuck that itll make u suicidal
i wish the american health care system actually fucking understood eds and how deep of a mental illness they are bc ive developed a genuine fear of the hospital and doctors. js thinking abt a yearly checkup makes me so anxious i feel like im gonna throw up
THEY WILL NEVER STOP ME. if u want to give me proper health care maybe stop focusing on the one thing thats gonna trigger me to starve harder and focus on the other parts of my health. if i ever do recover it will be MY CHOICE bc its MY GOD DAMN BODY NOT THE DOCTORS
i wish the american health care system actually fucking understood eds and how deep of a mental illness they are bc ive developed a genuine fear of the hospital and doctors. js thinking abt a yearly checkup makes me so anxious i feel like im gonna throw up
i fear getting a terminal illness like cancer bc i would let it get to a fatal point before seeing a doctor bc the only fucking thing they focus on is my weight and starving myself. URE NEVER GONNA TAKE AWAY MY CONTROL OVER MY OWN BODY, I GET TO DO WHATEVER I WANT