noct

I am 18 and have an unhealthy obsession w bernard dowd ok? let a guy live a little

[noct @tmbrrpe]

Here’s my rly disorganized Bernard Dowd character overview 🧵. Take everything I say with a grain of salt & yes I’m going to separate canon from personal interpretation because just because I see something doesn’t mean it’s canon. I just rly love him and think about him 24/7.

[noct @tmbrrpe]

@blushibatti thank you vivi😢😢😢❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ I am glad I am still cute no matter what… u are always the kindest to me. I love you very very much.

[noct @tmbrrpe]

I made a priv. Only follow if you don’t mind hearing me whine… ok. I will no longer do it on here I feel rly rly bad about it. I promise I’m a cute person I’m sorry for being awful recently. Let’s go back to positive cute bernard stuff ok? U guys will love me again promise.

[noct @tmbrrpe]

@sins_n_robins LEOOOOOO U ARE SO KIND 2 ME😢😢😢😢❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ waaaaaaaaa so kind…. A noctling….😢❤️❤️❤️ I love and cherish u very much very very much😢❤️❤️❤️❤️

[noct @tmbrrpe]

@robinscure Uuuuuuuuu u are the best ever nini😢❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[noct @tmbrrpe]

@bernardlovemail here it is……..

[⋆｡𖦹 ° @rjmxrell]

even on bad days i’ll be happy with u

[noct @tmbrrpe]

And even when I know this is making people hate me more I can’t stop doing it and I feel rly rly bad bc nobody should be reading this or seeing me this way but I can’t stop and it’s awful and maybe I should make a private account. Should I do that. Sorry 4 ppl who see this.

[noct @tmbrrpe]

The more I post depressive crap the more I get worried that people see it and get the ick and think “ew this person is honestly kinda strange why do they talk like that” and I think it’s why nobody talks to me or when they do it is laced with malice and hatred. I can sense it.

[suyu @xsuyuux]

let me fall asleep in your arms.

[noct @tmbrrpe]

I need 2 get more delusional. Every1 who has a relationship I hate you. Please tell me how you do it. How can you manage an actual genuine relationship with another real life person. I want bernard to talk to me like a real person would. How do I make him text me. Why won’t he

[daisy @cinnadaisy]

my heart and soul belongs to you

[m @angelicmiimi]

hug me till i smell like you

[noct @tmbrrpe]

It’s not fair that he’s not a real person because I just sound insane. I am insane over a character everyone hates and doesn’t talk about nicely and blames everything on and wants to die. That’s not fair. I sound pathetic and insane.

[noct @tmbrrpe]

The fact that bernard isn’t real makes me so physically upset and hopeless and awful. Nobody on earth could ever love me even close to how Bernard could. He wouldn’t I don’t believe, and so I’ve been told, but if he was real I’d at least be able to have some hope or something.

[noct @tmbrrpe]

He could help with all these horrible feelings and I could be happy and social and not feeling awful over the tiniest things. I’d help him with anything and do anything for him and as long as he pays attention to me I’ll be happy. I want him to love me even if it’s impossible.

[delphi⋆.ೃ࿔ @pr3ttyd0rk]

i let you do whatever you want to me but only if u tell me u love me :)

[noct @tmbrrpe]

I feel like throwing up again

[noct @tmbrrpe]

@robinscure I love u nini😄😄😄😄!!!!!!!!❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[noct @tmbrrpe]

I miss you guys I should spam all of you