"I'm realistic, I'm always at home, and I like being alone. I don't reject friends, I just get tired of many people" - Lee Jeno
Me the other side of enfp
My perspective has changed, my perspective on love has changed. If love was power before, now love is the part I avoid the most and the one I fear most in my life again. I'm afraid of falling in love and falling because of love. I'm afraid of hurting many hearts again.
when reality comes and I have to bring this body to let go and relive it for myself. it feels like a part of this life is lost buried the same as reality that was deliberately buried. my heart seems afraid to start afraid of falling again and not wanting to fall in love.
From the beginning I saw I saw love that was everything in my life. Even the distance that separated me from when I was a baby did not change his love. The distance that the universe showed, that reality did not even change anything until now that love has not changed.
I let it go sincerely, but it was as if what I buried also buried my heart and this part of my life. I doubt I can believe in love again. It seems like I don't have the ability to start and try to love someone else.
It's been four years since I tried to let go of something that wasn't really mine, not part of my life. It was everything before and it was the reason I held on. I forgot it because it was written in my destiny. But my heart felt dead and dim.
Gue dengan kesadaran penuh kalau ngonser itu buang" duit tapi kalau bts sama seventeen gue pilih nonton karena mereka spesial di hidup gue. apapun gue selalu pilih dan irit baju aja beli kadang setahun sekali hp rusak aja gak ganti"