Snap out of it twin. That's not heartbreak. Heartbreak is losing someone who loved you correctly.
You lost someone who gave you anxiety, inconsistency, and the bare minimum while you gave them everything.
You're throwing your life away because you have a dopamine addiction
You're addicted to the phone, you can't concentrate on your plans because it's not stimulating enough, and you keep starting and stopping everything year after year
You can change that, and you should