@LilacDeadland Whenever I try to improve my lifestyle I just feel like a total larper. Like my brain is so used to being unproductive that deviating from it almost feels morally wrong, especially if I'm not naturally interested
I think you become permanently damaged when you get hit with the whiplash of going from the best to the worst period of your life, in succession. The wanting to go back to the time before will ruin your current life. You become stubborn and unwilling to accept what happened.
I woke up and saw all caps times new roman words on my door that said, I think "yourself" and other words. It was hard to tell because it was upside down.
Everyone in my life says that I'm hilarious and should post the shit I make onto social media. However, they don't know that I just use it to dump my feelings that I will never tell anybody.