jinx of shtwt

Jִinx ࣪𖤐 prns : she/her ִ ࣪𖤐 professional motherfucker , 17 || I sometimes repost UNCENSORED SH !!! || diagnosed : depression, ADHD, SAD, PTSD

[jinx of shtwt @toolatefor911]

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[jinx of shtwt @toolatefor911]

lost 4lbs from camping a week long, why do i look so much better

[jeffyofykwtwt @Jeffyofsillytwt]

i dont wanna get better i wanna get worse until it kills me

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Me and oomf

[jinx of shtwt @toolatefor911]

@ZoBellyazus7 prob is

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everytime i see a biggie vein or artery pop out i be caressing that sh like im tryna rizz it just to imagine slicing it

[jinx of shtwt @toolatefor911]

at this point I’m pretty much unwillingly going into recovery because so much scares me now, like no i don’t wanna risk nerve damage causing mobility loss?? i wanna do it, I have urges to go deep but i just end up hesitating. I hate this, I’m not clean for myself

[jinx of shtwt @toolatefor911]

@effieisstarving you have been through, neither do i see through your eyes. But through mine, you are amazing the way you are.

[jinx of shtwt @toolatefor911]

@effieisstarving version. I can’t for certain say that you‘ll fully overcome it, but over time it will fade. I hope the more steps you take forward the more you‘ll get comfortable with who you are now instead of the one you used to be.

I know i say this as person who has not been through what

[jinx of shtwt @toolatefor911]

@effieisstarving i mean yes, i can’t speak from personal experience w ed‘s but for years you’ve been so harsh to yourself, needing to follow all the rules you set yourself to achieve your „goal“ that now when you’re finally breaking these rules, the standard you set for yourself you may hate that

[jinx of shtwt @toolatefor911]

@reoflippidyflip @boillnes yes, that’s true. I just think there’s something even more off about posting pics of somebody who probably has passed away. That goes for people posting Thinspo of people that have passed away aswell. You are right, i won’t be able to stop it

[jinx of shtwt @toolatefor911]

@bloodymxth my wooden floor has to go through hell because of this exact feeling, love the bleeding hate the clean up.

[jinx of shtwt @toolatefor911]

@bloodymxth i know that too well, I’m sorry you’re going through that. What do you like to do to distract yourself?

[jinx of shtwt @toolatefor911]

@boillnes @reoflippidyflip this is coldnessinmyheart, wjy t we still resppstong their pics

[jinx of shtwt @toolatefor911]

this is the final goodbye, I’m recovering

[jinx of shtwt @toolatefor911]

I’ll do it extreme one last time, if I suffer nerve damage I’ll get surgery and stop, if I don’t I’ll continue

[jinx of shtwt @toolatefor911]

I don’t even wanna do this, I don’t wanna buy blades and I don’t wanna hurt myself but I can’t, I can’t not hurt myself it’s never fucking enough

[jinx of shtwt @toolatefor911]

i gen cant sh deep anymore because im scared of nerve damage and nothing ever has pissed me off as bad as this does