if i talk too much about my ed in a normal conversation its not in a attention seeking way its in a my brains consumed by it i cant think about anything else and its normalised in my head way
im genuinely incapable of staying still its so bad unless im like too depressed too move or someone's given me shit for it but becuz im obsessed with steps its so fucking bad if im made too sit somewhere for too long ill just start pacing like a fucking weirdo 💔
some people need too up their intake why do i get more shit for wanting too be severely underweight sickly skinny and saying i feel fat at a lw then the fatphobic bitches who put other people down and purposely encourage and trigger them
anyone else have friends incapable of just saying hi when they see u somewhere if they see me in the street? lob something at the back of my head drive past me walking down the road? they go full speed towards me and try run me over just shout my name or something come on 💔
sometimes i wonder how i ever managed too fuck anyone like i fell off my bed taking nudes live photo aswell got distracted mid sext tweeting thats without even mentioning the fainting or smoking mid fuck and the fact i completely blank anything sexual if theres feelings involved
being lonely will have u getting attached too someone too the point ur whole mood depends on them and them being busy or seeming off will have u tryna kys when they probably dont even care if u live or die
dont understimate the amount of bullshit i will apologise for i say sorry for saying sorry too much my ex tried too punch me once and i flinched away and he hit his hand on the wall and i apologised for making him hurt his hand i will say sorry for anything and everything
anorexic bitch and a guy who eats like he has 4 chins is not a good mix fucker force feeds me but hardly lets me leave for long enough too get shit i would eat so im stuck with whatever probably drugged calorie bomb hes made
does anyone else get paranoid they are secretly a horrible person who is hurting everyone or ik i hurt people and im not exactly a good person but like does anyone get what i mean or do i just sound insane im not crazy tho i have reasoning
i have a habit of accidentally turning people into like a 20 stacked filters snowapp egirl i like having all my cutsie matching things but then if i want too put someone as my phone wallpaper it fucks with my layout so i put layovers and filters on them so it matches..
fun fact theres one reassuring phrase people say that's enough too make me spiral and tweak out becuz of my ex its so bad becuz its the usual sweet cutsie shit people assume i would trust so people say it too me all the time i cant even bring it up becuz its so stupid aswell 💔
i complain about my shitty exs like im not the shitty ex im not abusive or anything but im a bad person and i hurt people and lie and fuck up so im not good either what do u do when ur too nice for shitty people but too shitty for nice people am i just doomed
if i said i spam people with random messages when they are gone not just becuz im lonely becuz otherwise i get paranoid i have been blocked and tweak out do u guys get me or do i sound crazy
when i say im bad on my own im not check ur location send u things about how i miss u clingy if ur gone i'll convince myself u hate me and have left get really suicidal and freak out just too be fine the second u wake up or whatever
my friends treat me like a pet for some reason i got lured out with half a bottle of vodka and 2 and a half pingers like deadass my friend went pspspsp too me then just grabbed my arm and dragged me out when i walked over too see what she was holding 💔