to be honest i think im gonna take a break from here for a while. id love to keep in touch with so many of you but I dont think this is exactly something I should be spending my limited time & attention on atm. ive had a lot of thoughts & nobody to really share them with who will listen, unless its passively through content i make. they would probably resonate with a lot, while at the same time being very divisive which is totally ok & i thrive off that anyway (not the healthiest i know but sometimes it can be useful).
im going to make a video & pin it to my profile, then step away for a while. locking my account as well. unfortunately I need to do this for my mental health consequences & judgement be damned. im not going to be holding back about much, & its gonna be super long
some of it will be talking about what it is that i need to do right now for my own sake, and how i really could not care less about what anyone has to say about that
another will be commentary regarding the state of the world & many of the themes im sure all of us relate to on a daily basis on here
this isnt me trying to become some dipshit guru either, im doing this for myself as an exercise of grounding who I truly am inside. its something I wish I made years ago
theres just been a lot of things ive finally allowed to land & to surface these last 9 months or so. there's both no excuse to be a bad person & at the same time absolutely no justification for pretending parts of you also do not exist, or that they should be repressed. fuck. that.
you cannot call yourself a radical & then turn around acting as if we should accept that parts of our personalities arent valid; to delude ourselves into thinking that by becoming more tolerant of other people it somehow makes up for those qualities we've put away
im vain, and i dont begrudge anyone else for being so either. thats just one of them. by ignoring who I really am i have seriously fucked up my life, and im not doing that anymore. its ok to hate, yes HATE things & find them repulsive. this does not make you fucking fascist, or reactionary. theres a difference between being a piece of shit to someone & having your own preferences.
my point here is that we all need to be way more honest about how we feel about things. dont keep them to yourself and make it awkward, unless you want to cause harm because that's exactly what it does. if you want to be malicious then leave things unsaid, thats my advice. its the most subtle yet potent form of manipulation. truly fucking vile shit.
i really could not care less if people think im pulling a Taylor Lorenz either. in fact I fucking welcome you to try & make that case. challenge me. because what im actually attempting to do here is the exact opposite.
I want to hear your disagreements because anyone thats worth keeping around KNOWS I have pure intentions. you've all seen my politics & what I stand for on here i assure you there will be no pivoting for trying to make this place less shitty for all of us
its disrespectful to myself to leave any of what im feeling right now in my head any longer. by not putting out my ideas im betraying what ive overcome already, my present self & what I wish for my future to be. im going to probably piss a lot of people off by what I have to say about the world & quite frankly id rather burn every single bridge & be alone & correct than live another day in this state.
whatever will happen afterward is infinitely better as an alternative because we are all living a lie, not just me. nobody has it all figured out & there is much that we do not understand. the only way out of the hell we've created here on earth is through not limiting ourselves in the scope of our perspective. we can hold true to what we will & will not tolerate while also understanding exactly what it is that lead to our opposition thinking what they do. the only way out will always be through.
I don't know when this will be done but keep an eye out ig.
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