ana 👽

i’m just a fckin loser

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new body checks in a depressed state i was trying to block out my bio piercings lolol

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i’m so fat but my a$$ thooo

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i only like weed if i take kpins or drink wine i rarely like it when i’m completely sober

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i’ll drink a bottle of wine in an hr and think i have a problem 🤣🤣🤣

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went to rehab last year been sober the longest i’ve ever gone since using drugs but i didn’t give up alcohol and alcohol now ruined so much shit in a 24 hour period smfh no more hard liquor for me. it’s been a wild ride life got so much better but now i feel like i’m at square 1.

[ana 👽 @twistedven0m]

this tiktok put me in the christmas spirit 😂

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physical representation of how i feel the day after drinking

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idk why when i hang out with people they constantly talk about how terrible drug addicts are like shut the fuck up im an addict in recovery

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at the demi concert someone a part of the tour was taking pics of the crowd and there were some where i was in but they haven’t posted them and i would like to see them and keep them for memories sake why didn’t they post them 😭😭😭

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update: i’m not gonna kill myself

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i think i’m gonna kill myself within the next few days i just don’t want to try and not succeed bc i’m not goin to a mental hospital

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MY COURT CASE WAS DISMISSED!!!

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i’m going to get so skinny bc people keep making jokes about how i’m going to get fat so jokes on them now im gonna lose a fuck ton of weight and they’ll be speechless

[ana 👽 @twistedven0m]

i almost just shit myself while cleaning a residents room omg

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my period is coming for my jugular

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another day another penny

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i really am sad that i hate myself sm. imagine actually loving yourself-loving your appearance & who you are as a person. i bet that makes life a little easier. i feel like loving yourself is the backbone of perceiving the world. if i loved myself i think i’d have a better life

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i was going to quit smoking weed made it 3 days but then i started missing smoking weed so now i’m smoking…weed

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found this video from 2 years ago i’ll call it pondering thoughts

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ever since i got sick i’m not eating much i don’t even have a desire to eat which i LOVE i hope it lasts forever

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@SickBeingObese thank you!

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so i found a bag of pills and my moms like “what are you doing” i said “just browsing” lmao but i found clonadine and my brains like “take them all you got so close last time” but i’m not even suicidal wtf!!!