because no amount of “i love you” can erase the fact that you looked at my worth,weighed it against your urge and picked the urge. cheating isn’t a mistake,it’s a decision. a deliberate, selfish act made while knowing exactly who it would hurt.
kinda fucked that i have to constantly be busy and distracted so my brain doesn’t default to its factory settings of {depression and suicidal ideation}
does anyone else get insanely romantically frustrated??? like i know sexual frustration is a thing but sometimes i get super intense cravings for soft kisses or make out sessions or cuddling naps or things like that and it’s way more frustrating to me than sexual cravings :((