yeojun sent this long message on bubble oh my god 😭🤍
🦊 i came here because there's something i want to say to closers as human jang yeojun. thank you so much for 1st place on music bank today, truly from the bottom of my heart. i want to fully convey this immense gratitude, but i feel regretful because no method seems enough to fully put it into words
to be honest and to confess this carefully, i actually thought that our chances to get 1st place would gradually decrease... of course we have won 1st place on music shows before, but i always thought it was just good luck thanks to closer and thanks to our agency. so every time, i kept questioning myself whether i was truly someone deserving of that trophy
i wished that numbers or visible results would match our efforts, so when they didn't, it was upsetting at times. but even so, whenever i saw closer and whenever i saw the people working hard for us, my dreams and desperation grew even stronger. that is truly for certain
every single moment spent with closer is so happy and my dream feels so clear that my desperation for it sometimes becomes almost frightening.. so from a certain point, regardless of results or recognition from others, i spent my days with the resolve of 'i just need to work hard.' but receiving a trophy like this felt as if closer was telling me, 'you're doing well right now,' bringing a surge of emotions beyond words that transcended mere gratitude
i felt sad, thankful, happy... so many emotions passed through me that my vocabulary isn't enough to express them all. perhaps i was overwhelmed because this symbolic memory we made today, within the time i've been spending with closers, is so precious to me, and because it felt as though our efforts and closers' efforts had been proven to the world
there was a passage from a book i read recently that left the strongest impression on me. it said, 'the world does not give back as much as you effort. the way to adapt to such a world is to pull yourself together and keep doing what you were doing.' to me, those words felt like they were teaching me that effort isn't meant to be done hoping someone will notice or purely for results, but that living steadfastly is what life is about
but you know what! i just want to keep moving forward together with closer. even without thinking about a set destination, as long as i have closer, the process of advancing together itself would make me happy
closer always tells me that you gain strength and grow because of me, but looking back like this, it feels like i'm actually the one receiving so much more
thank you so much for always sending unsparing love and support. i love you. ♥️